Saying Goodbye To Maverick Options

[mavsmommy]

Hello everyone. I just found this website when trying to make sense of my grief. This morning, we had to put our beloved Aussie Shephard, Maverick, to sleep. He was 12, and in those wonderful years he'd been attacked nearly to death, developed cataracts and diabetes. Our vet told us most dogs with diabetes don't live more than three years after prognosis, we were lucky enough to be blessed with Maverick for 6 after. this is more cathartic than anything, but i just keep going through the morning in my mind. He started having seizures late last night, then this morning they were severe. He didn't even really seem to be with us when he went, but my husband, baby and I were in the room and touching him, holding his head. I feel such a sense of loss, I'm overwhelmed. I've been in tears all day while my husband seems to be doing okay (he had Maverick for 5 years before he met me). Am I normal? I'm emotionally spent, and I feel bad for our other dog, a pit-dalmation-lab mix, Murphy, who seems kind of lost. ANy thoughts would be welcome.

Missing my baby and crying my eyes out.
Maverick's Mom