Rest In Peace Cont. Options

[SJ J & S]

My intentions were to leave Rest in peace in peace but if I don’t talk on here I end up talking to myself and we don’t want the men in white coats coming and taking me away do we?
Well my darlings I have made it through today, although there is still 2 1/2 hours to go.
Yesterday was hard a client took us out for a meal and I could feel the tears welling up and in spite of my efforts a few escaped. But in all it was a nice evening.
Since your 6/3rd anniversary I’ve been trying to be positive and in all I think I’ve done pretty well.
I really was expecting today to be so hard but Fri and Sat were worse, I guess a bit like not looking forward to going to the dentist and after it wasn’t as bad as you expected, I guess that means I’m on the mend though I do still miss you terribly and think of you 100s of times during the day.
Ian and I went to the Barge today and reminisced about some of the antics you got up to during your short lives, we were laughing and not crying which was lovely.
I actually feel at peace, at the moment anyway, and think I’m ready to start doing some sort of exercising, still well see in the morning I always feel so tired and can only just be bothered to get ready for work.
Its funny I've just realised I've felt like this all-day, kind of peaceful and happy to sit back and watch the world go by, it’s a nice feeling.
Love you both and looking forward to the day we can see each other again, but until then I guess life does go on.
Love and kisses
Sue ************************xx