Have I Gone Nuts? Options

[jenn]

I know this is going to sound silly... stupid even... but I just HAVE to know if anyone's had a similar experience...
Today I was sitting here at the computer.. answering a few emails, playing a game of poker... All of a sudden, out of nowhere, I smelt alcohol... Rubbing alcohol. The kind they used on Freeway's leg before the needle to put him to sleep.. It was SO strong... And just as quickly as it came, it left, although it lingered a bit.. I FELT him here.... I whispered to him baby it's you.. I know it is... it's you... and I felt his presence completely wash over me...
There was nothing in this room to cause that smell. Nothing. Believe me, I searched. I have never been one to believe in paranormal acitivity. But I FELT HIM HERE... Am I crazy??? Or is it possible he was letting me know he is ok... and here... watching over me.... It's been 2 week and I miss him so... He is still on my mind every second, his name is often on my lips, and I'm always talking to him. The pain still runs so so deep... I wonder if this incident was just my imagination WANTING to feel him near, but I swear I smelt it, and that is how he smelt the last time I saw his furry little body. I now associate that scent with him and his death so of course if he wanted me to know he was here he would use it...
God I hope it was him... I truly want to believe it was, but I also know that the mind can do weird things to you when you're in the midst of grief.
But it wasn't just the smell.. I felt him... it was like he was right here, his head on my foot.. I felt him... please tell me I'm not insane... And if I am insane, please order me a rubber room, lol. Oh how I want to believe that it was my baby letting me know he is ok.. How I long to know he is safe and happy and waiting for me... No more darn tumors, pills he hated to take, shots, pain and exhaustion.. happy and free... That is all I've ever truly wanted for him. It is all we should want for everyone and everything we love.

~Jenn