Does It Ever Go Away Options

[jenn]

It's thunderstorming outside right now.. Big loud booms of thunder. Freeway hated storms. They scared him. I heard the first boom and ran upstairs to comfort him and be with him... but he's not here... I KNOW that he's gone, how could I not... I doubt there's a minute that goes by each day when he's not on my mind. So why do I still keep wanting to run to him... to comfort him and console him.. why does it still shock me so much to walk in the door and be greeted by nothing.

My best friends dad died exactly one year ago, and I'm trying so hard to be here for him as he's slipped into a deep depression about it. I feel so silly crying about a dog when he's lost his dad... How can I be strong for him when my own heart is still so very broken.

Does this ever end?? When will my heart believe what my head already so painfully knows, that he's gone and isn't coming back. When will I stop thinking I see or hear him... It's just so painful and brings back a million emotions all over again. I want to go on with my life but I feel like I can't yet. I still just want him back... he belongs here with me.