My Maggie Is Gone... Options

[Selene]

My doggie of 7 years died today. She had cancer in her spinal cord and there was nothing they could do. They tried to operate on her and take it out but it was too bad and they had to put her to sleep on the operating table. I still can't believe she's gone. I just expect her to wake up and come push me with her nose to make me pet her. I miss her so much and I am totally riddled with guilt because I could have been there when she died but I wasn't. I guess I just didn't think she would die. She was my baby and I feel like I should have been there during the operation so that if she died during surgery (which she did) then I could hold her paw and tell her it was okay. I wish I could tell her how much I miss her and how much I wish I had been there with her when she went. I miss her so much.