Zorro's Passing, An emptiness in my heart Options

[Marina]

Today at 1:42 pm my fiance and I had to put our beloved Savannah cat "Zorro" to sleep. This was by far one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I sit here tonight and I found this website and it is a Godsend because I am torn apart inside. We had Zorro for a very short time. He was only 10 months old and we brought him home from a breeder in October. I have never bought a pure bred cat before either. My other 4 cats are all adopted and we brought Zorro home with a Bengal kitten named Xena. Zorro was originally from another cattery so we feel Xena will be fine and so far she is a healthy, happy 5 month-old. We took Zorro to three different vets, the last one being an internal medicine specialist who felt very strongly he had the dry form of Feline Infectious Peritonitis. This disease is fatal for cats. We were going to go through with exploratory surgery for a definitive diagnosis, however Zorro became too weak these last two days, was unable to stand and would no longer eat or drink. He lost 6 pounds over a period of less than two months, and had not responded to any of the treatments we tried over that time period. We took him to the emergency room Wednesday night and they ran more blood work on Thursday, however today when we went to pick him up, we just knew it was time. I know that my baby is in a better place now and no longer has to suffer but I am left with an emptiness that is too much to endure right now. Zorro was a unique and beautiful cat and we will never be able to replace him. As soon as I am able to I will post a picture or two of our sweet kitty. He had slept in between us for the last month and tonight I don't even feel like going to bed because his spot is empty. I know it will take time but the pain is so fresh right now. I am so glad to have found this site to speak to others who truly understand the agony of losing a pet to illness and death. God bless all of you. Thank you.