Mittens Is Gone Options

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Please, I just want to tell someone who will understand what i am feeling.
Last night, my husband and I had to make the choice to put our cat to sleep. Mittens had been in very poor shape for the last day and a half. She was on oxygen most of teh time. She only had fifty percent lung capacity, possibly do to Emphasema. The vet had her in this aquarium while they were giving her oxygen. I got to pet her a little, but most of the day yesterday she was eclosed in the tank and I couldn't touch her. My husband met me there after he finished work, I had wanted him to see her and be there with me for the toughest decision of my life. They had her on all kinds of medication and I don't think she even knew that we were there with her. That hurts so much. I can't stop crying. Her sister is still with us and it is hard to look at her without being reminded of Mittens. I am not alone, am I?
Janice