Lucy's Time Is Coming..., Feeling scared and sad Options

[Caroline]

Hi- I haven't posted in awhile. I found this website when I found out that my chocolate lab, Lucy, had been diagnosed with lymphoma a month ago. We put her on prednisone and the last 3-4 weeks have been great. She regained her energy and appetite, but we knew it would be temporary. She has really declined this week and we have decided to have her euthanized on Saturday at home with us.
I am feeling very scared and sad about the whole thing. I know in my heart it is the right thing, but it doesn't offer me any comfort. I can't imagine my life without her. I have read some people's stories about their experiences with euthanizing their little ones and this has helped me prepare somewhat. I would be grateful for any other advice from those of you who have had to make this agonizing decision.
We plan on taking our girl to the beach for one last swim on Saturday. It is hard to believe that this is all real. She is only five and I feel cheated out of many years I had hoped we would spend together. Thank you again for all of the support you at LS have given. Everyone at LS was so kind to me when I initially posted after getting Lucy's diagnosis. I was in complete shock and walked around in a daze for more than a week. Now all I feel is a huge pit in my stomach that won't go away. I know the worst is still to come. I had hoped not to have posted this message for awhile, foolishly thinking that we were going to have more time with her.
Thanks again for listening and for being a shoulder to cry on. It makes me feel better knowing that Lucy will live on through this website.
Caroline

[Kathleen032]

Oh, Caroline, I'm so sorry. I've not checked my Shiloh email this morning, so I'm reading about your decision about Lucy here for the first time.

I know exactly how you're feeling. If I could jump through this computer to be with you and Lucy, I would.

I think everyone here has given excellent advice as far as pictures and how to spend your last day with Lucy. On Shiloh's last day we spent the day outside watching birds and squirrels...she was much too weak to chase them, so we laid on the grass together just watching them and loving each other. Another thing I did on Shiloh's last day was I invited people over who had touched Shiloh's life and who's lives were touched by Shiloh to say goodbye.

I'm so glad your vet is coming to the house...I would request a tranquilizer for Lucy before the actual euthanasia. My vet did that for Shiloh and her passing was without incident.

My heart is just breaking for you. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and sweet Lucy. As I said in my email...I'll be here for you and Shiloh will be there at the Rainbow Bridge to greet Lucy.

Take care,
Kathleen