Lucy's Time Is Coming..., Feeling scared and sad Options

[Caroline]

Hi- I haven't posted in awhile. I found this website when I found out that my chocolate lab, Lucy, had been diagnosed with lymphoma a month ago. We put her on prednisone and the last 3-4 weeks have been great. She regained her energy and appetite, but we knew it would be temporary. She has really declined this week and we have decided to have her euthanized on Saturday at home with us.
I am feeling very scared and sad about the whole thing. I know in my heart it is the right thing, but it doesn't offer me any comfort. I can't imagine my life without her. I have read some people's stories about their experiences with euthanizing their little ones and this has helped me prepare somewhat. I would be grateful for any other advice from those of you who have had to make this agonizing decision.
We plan on taking our girl to the beach for one last swim on Saturday. It is hard to believe that this is all real. She is only five and I feel cheated out of many years I had hoped we would spend together. Thank you again for all of the support you at LS have given. Everyone at LS was so kind to me when I initially posted after getting Lucy's diagnosis. I was in complete shock and walked around in a daze for more than a week. Now all I feel is a huge pit in my stomach that won't go away. I know the worst is still to come. I had hoped not to have posted this message for awhile, foolishly thinking that we were going to have more time with her.
Thanks again for listening and for being a shoulder to cry on. It makes me feel better knowing that Lucy will live on through this website.
Caroline

[DJ - Edgar, Jess...]

I have a few pieces of advice.

First, spend your last day with her doing everything you can think of that will make her last day complete. Spoil her mercilessly.

Second, when the time comes - no hesitation. Be firm with yourself, let the deed be done, and no second guessing. You do her no favours by hesitating.

Third, take care of yourself. Have food already prepared for a day or so in your fridge or freezer, do your chores as diligently as you can while you grieve - keeping your own daily routines intact will help you cope. Make sure your family and friends know when the time comes so that they can support you. Stay hydrated and eat what you can.

Last, never forget that no matter how bleak you may think things are - we are here for you. We always will be. We will never leave you or let you down. No question is too silly to ask, no tirade or rant is too long to post. Vent with us, let us grieve with you.

We feel for you - and please, on her last day, give Lucy a big hug for US. We wish her well and we'll take are of her Mom for her. Lucy won't just live on with this website - she will live on in OUR memories and hearts as well.