Lucy's Time Is Coming..., Feeling scared and sad Options

[Caroline]

Hi- I haven't posted in awhile. I found this website when I found out that my chocolate lab, Lucy, had been diagnosed with lymphoma a month ago. We put her on prednisone and the last 3-4 weeks have been great. She regained her energy and appetite, but we knew it would be temporary. She has really declined this week and we have decided to have her euthanized on Saturday at home with us.
I am feeling very scared and sad about the whole thing. I know in my heart it is the right thing, but it doesn't offer me any comfort. I can't imagine my life without her. I have read some people's stories about their experiences with euthanizing their little ones and this has helped me prepare somewhat. I would be grateful for any other advice from those of you who have had to make this agonizing decision.
We plan on taking our girl to the beach for one last swim on Saturday. It is hard to believe that this is all real. She is only five and I feel cheated out of many years I had hoped we would spend together. Thank you again for all of the support you at LS have given. Everyone at LS was so kind to me when I initially posted after getting Lucy's diagnosis. I was in complete shock and walked around in a daze for more than a week. Now all I feel is a huge pit in my stomach that won't go away. I know the worst is still to come. I had hoped not to have posted this message for awhile, foolishly thinking that we were going to have more time with her.
Thanks again for listening and for being a shoulder to cry on. It makes me feel better knowing that Lucy will live on through this website.
Caroline

[Ann H]

Caroline I just wanted to add that you might want to take a lot of pictures of Lucy and you and Lucy together. If you do not have a camera get one of those throw away cameras and when you are done do not take the film out of it take the whole camera in and they will develope them for you. They are not the best for close ups but it would be better than not having pictures.

Once again I must say my heart is breaking for you and I am so very sorry that you must help your baby to the Rainbow Bridge. It will take a lot of time and tears for your heart to heal and sometimes it feels like you wont make it another day but you can and you will just hold on Caroline. I do believe the longing for your baby will always be with you. I think after the pain becomes a dull ache we all just learn to live with our loss and sorrow.
Love, Ann