One Month Since Losing My Beautiful Boy Brutus Options

[BrutusMom]

I am new to this site as a member but I have read many of the past posts. I just needed to say that my Brutus passed away on March 16, 2018. He was my only furbaby-child as I was not able to have children of my own. He was 11.5 years old and the most handsome, black-bearded 30-lb. mini schnauzer you had ever seen. He was diagnosed diabetic and with a heart murmur 3 years ago. I believe on that fateful Friday, one of his heart valves failed as he started to show symptoms of congestive heart failure and his heart was greatly enlarged. I got him to the vets in time and they tried to revive him. He looked at me as I held his face in my hands, said goodbye, and was gone. The vet started CPR but to no avail.
I will post more in the future and add pictures of my beautiful boy Brutus but I am too upset and crying rivers to do it now. Thanks for listening

[BrutusMom]

SIX WEEKS!!!! I am still so lost, broken and confused and at a loss as to what I am suppose to do. I see and feel you everywhere and the silence in this house is deafening. Rude awakenings. I have set up a memorial for you in the special spot on the hearth where you loved to hide your babies. And as I step back to look at it, a voice inside me says "is this all there is left after 11.5 wonderful and life-full years?" And then another voice says, "this is a tribute to your baby in honor of that wonderful and life-full 11.5 years you had shared with your sweet beautiful boy!" Your urn ashes with the photo I took of you just 5 days before you died, your paw print and fur clippings inside the cherry wood box your ashes were in when they sent them to me, you puppy photo after your first grooming, the photo of you in the sun room that was given to me by my friends at work at my retirement party, your collar with the diabetic warning tag that Aunt Diane got you 3 Christmas' ago--and a beautiful angel keeping watch that lights the room when all the other lights have gone out. You are no longer by my side, but forever in my heart!! Rest in Peace my sweet beautiful boy. Run and play--be a puppy again--no more shots, no more pain and bask in the warmth of the Rainbow Bridge sun. Mommy loves you--we are connected at the soul, and the soul never dies!!