One Month Since Losing My Beautiful Boy Brutus Options

[BrutusMom]

I am new to this site as a member but I have read many of the past posts. I just needed to say that my Brutus passed away on March 16, 2018. He was my only furbaby-child as I was not able to have children of my own. He was 11.5 years old and the most handsome, black-bearded 30-lb. mini schnauzer you had ever seen. He was diagnosed diabetic and with a heart murmur 3 years ago. I believe on that fateful Friday, one of his heart valves failed as he started to show symptoms of congestive heart failure and his heart was greatly enlarged. I got him to the vets in time and they tried to revive him. He looked at me as I held his face in my hands, said goodbye, and was gone. The vet started CPR but to no avail.
I will post more in the future and add pictures of my beautiful boy Brutus but I am too upset and crying rivers to do it now. Thanks for listening

[moon_beam]

Hi, Brutus' Mom, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. I can so relate to what you share with us as you write "My creative talents are stagnant at this moment as all I know is that I miss my Brutus to the point of distraction." After each of my beloved companions joined the angels - - prior to my beloved Noah - - I was able to create a loving tribute to them to share with friends and family. When my beloved Noah transitioned from this earthly realm I could hardly think of what to do for him, and when I did begin the task it took me so many attempts to just figure out the simplest formats of what I wanted to do, and the formats kept changing because making a decision on any level was too difficult. It was all I could do to focus on remembering to pay bills and even what day it happened to be. And I had to write everything down because I literally couldn't remember from one minute to the next what I had done - - or needed to do. The grief "fog" is now diminishing, and I am putting the finishing touches on my beloved Noah's memorial. But the sad thing is this memorial is the "last thing" I will be able to do for my brave beloved Noah who literally sacrificed his well being for mine when I was in excruciating pain for 9 months last year. The life I had known for 14 years with my beloved Noah is now a treasured memory, and "creating" a life now alone as a senior citizen is difficult.

The point of sharing my experience with you is to try to let you know that what you are experiencing now is very normal deep grief. At some point in time your creative energy will return - - perhaps differently than what it was before - - but your beloved Brutus will show you the way - - for his sweet Living Spirit is always and forever a part of your heart and memories - - he is always and forever a heartbeat close to you for love is eternal - - it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space.

Thank you again, Brutus' Mom, for sharing your beloved handsome boy with us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam