One Month Since Losing My Beautiful Boy Brutus Options

[BrutusMom]

I am new to this site as a member but I have read many of the past posts. I just needed to say that my Brutus passed away on March 16, 2018. He was my only furbaby-child as I was not able to have children of my own. He was 11.5 years old and the most handsome, black-bearded 30-lb. mini schnauzer you had ever seen. He was diagnosed diabetic and with a heart murmur 3 years ago. I believe on that fateful Friday, one of his heart valves failed as he started to show symptoms of congestive heart failure and his heart was greatly enlarged. I got him to the vets in time and they tried to revive him. He looked at me as I held his face in my hands, said goodbye, and was gone. The vet started CPR but to no avail.
I will post more in the future and add pictures of my beautiful boy Brutus but I am too upset and crying rivers to do it now. Thanks for listening

[moon_beam]

Hi, Brutus' Mom, please permit me to add my belated sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Brutus. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Please know your heartbreak has not gone unnoticed. For me sometimes the words are hard to find to write, so it takes me awhile to respond. I am so very glad Mistletoe has been able to offer you comfort, and has shared with you what is also in my heart.

Brutus' Mom, please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is very normal in this time of deep grief. This grief journey is one of the most painful experiences we will know - - both physically and emotionally. I, too, have been going through a very difficult grief adjustment journey to the physical loss of my beloved Noah on November 11, 2017. As a senior citizen with severe medical challenges my beloved Noah is my last companion in my earthly journey, and our last year together was not a pleasant one - - for all the many months I was in excruciating pain my beloved Noah's sweet body was being invaded by cancer and he never let me know he was becoming seriously ill until the evening of November 9, 2017. I was able to get him to the emergency hospital where the doctors finally discovered he had terminal cancer that had massively invaded his abdomen. The consolation is that I was able to be with him when the doctor mercifully assisted my beloved Noah on his transition journey from this earthly realm. Although it has been 5 months since my beloved Noah joined the angels my heart still aches from the deep sorrow of his physical absence - - and most importantly that he was so brave for me all the months I was in such excruciating pain while hiding from me that he was becoming so ill.

I also know what it is like to lose a beloved companion so quickly after the physical loss of a human family member. Indeed, I can so well understand how you're feeling coping with the physical loss of your beloved Brutus so quickly after the recent losses of your mother and stepfather.

I truly wish there were an easier way to navigate this grief journey, but unfortunately there are no fast forward or delete buttons we can press to speed up the process or make it automatically disappear. The only way is to take one day at a time, one moment at a time - - knowing you are among friends here who truly do understand what you are going through. Brutus' Mom, we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us - - and please know I will respond to you as soon as I can.

Brutus' Mom, I know all too well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, and encouragement as you travel your grief journey.

Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Brutus with us, and for this wonderful picture of your handsome boy. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Brutus' Mom, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam