One Month Since Losing My Beautiful Boy Brutus Options

[BrutusMom]

I am new to this site as a member but I have read many of the past posts. I just needed to say that my Brutus passed away on March 16, 2018. He was my only furbaby-child as I was not able to have children of my own. He was 11.5 years old and the most handsome, black-bearded 30-lb. mini schnauzer you had ever seen. He was diagnosed diabetic and with a heart murmur 3 years ago. I believe on that fateful Friday, one of his heart valves failed as he started to show symptoms of congestive heart failure and his heart was greatly enlarged. I got him to the vets in time and they tried to revive him. He looked at me as I held his face in my hands, said goodbye, and was gone. The vet started CPR but to no avail.
I will post more in the future and add pictures of my beautiful boy Brutus but I am too upset and crying rivers to do it now. Thanks for listening

[Mistletoe]

BrutusMom--

So sorry to hear about Brutus--I know exactly what your loss and pain feel like.

 Not the least hard thing to bear when they go from us, these quiet friends, is that they carry away with them so many years of our own lives..." John Galworthy

[BrutusMom]

Thank you Mistletoe. It feels like I have been trapped in a nightmare since my Brutus passed. I find I hate coming home to an empty house because he is no longer here to greet me. Actually my life is turned upside down and I struggle to find ways to cope. Sorry about your loss.

[Mistletoe]

Thank you Mistletoe. It feels like I have been trapped in a nightmare since my Brutus passed. I find I hate coming home to an empty house because he is no longer here to greet me. Actually my life is turned upside down and I struggle to find ways to cope. Sorry about your loss.

THANK YOU----

BEAUTIFUL BRUTUS!!! Again---so sorry

I do so understand. You found the right site---hopefully you will hear from others, that will share your grief.
It doesn't seem like it now, but it will get easier, in time.
Maybe, one day, you'll come across a Fur baby, who needs you as much as you need it
Do your grieving---it's natural and appropriate---it will help

[BrutusMom]

Again, thank you Mistletoe for your kind words. I do find comfort in knowing that my Brutus will not suffer the painful path of full blown congestive heart failure with the bloating and difficulty breathing due to his much enlarged heart. He was just beginning to get the cough. The fact that he was also diabetic compromised his heart and other organs on top of everything. I was also spared the most difficult decision that a furbaby parent has to make as that is a likely scenario. My Brutus crossed the Rainbow Bridge on his own. The last gift my sweet beautiful boy gave to me was that when I held his face in my hands, he looked at me and the cataracts were gone and his eyes were as brown as brown could be. He said goodbye as we stared into each others eyes, and then he was gone. The vet started CPR but after I while I stopped his hands and whispered "enough, stop, my baby has been through enough, let him go in peace"

All the above is true but the fact remains that I cannot see clear right now--all I know is that I feel broken. Brutus was my second heart outside of my body. It has been made worse because my mother passed October 12 2017 and my stepfather passed on March 11 2018. With Brutus passing on March 16 2018 it was the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back.

I feel broken and lost and struggle for ways to travel this grief journey.