My Beloved Noah Options

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At 1:52 a.m. I received a call from Noah's overnight physician from the ER hospital. A "quick" ultrasound was done on Noah at some point after I left visiting him, and fluid was found in his abdomen. A sample of the fluid was taken which showed definite bacteria - - which means something in my precious Noah's abdomen was perforated or leaking. This is always considered a surgical emergency, which I approved.

At 2:20 a.m. the surgeon called me to let me know that there was nothing she could do for my precious Noah. His stomach had ruptured from multiple tumors and there was nothing but dead tissue in place of his stomach. The only thing that could be done for him was to mercifully transition him from this earthly realm. She agreed that she could keep Noah comfortable under anesthesia until I arrived to be with him when the drugs were administered. I arrived at the hospital around 3:20 a.m., and around 3:30 a.m. Noah joined his beautiful sibling baby sister Abbygayle and adopted big kitty brother Eli in heaven's perfect garden.

Needless to say my heart is aching right now and the tears are flowing, but there are so many things I am thankful for - - one of them having had the honor and privilege of being his human caregiver all the 14 years of his sweet physical life. I will get a pawprint and his ashes back sometime within the next week.

I want to thank each of you for your comforting support during this time of great sorrow,

Peace and blessings,
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[moon_beam]

Today a gentleman who helps me with projects around the house came to move the carpeted kitty latrine boxes up to the garage for me. Now the space in the house seems more empty, another reminder that they are no longer needed because all of my beloved feline companions are now with the angels. As I was straightening up the blankets on the bed today I saw the fleece throw that I would warm on the heating pad and then Noah would snuggle under it. It breaks my heart now knowing that he no longer needs it. He also removed the carpets that had been on the floor for 20 years which had a lot of fur child "living" on them through the years. It was time for them to be removed, but they will not be replaced. This, too, adds to the list of reminders of how empty my home is now. This grief adjustment journey is a challenge to endure through when you're an older person. When I was younger I had things to look forward to, - - but now as age is taking it's toll it's a "reality check" that things to look forward to are now very limited in this earthly journey. I know the deep sorrow will ease in time, but for now my heart is aching.

Peace and blessings,
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