My Beloved Noah Options

[moon_beam]

At 1:52 a.m. I received a call from Noah's overnight physician from the ER hospital. A "quick" ultrasound was done on Noah at some point after I left visiting him, and fluid was found in his abdomen. A sample of the fluid was taken which showed definite bacteria - - which means something in my precious Noah's abdomen was perforated or leaking. This is always considered a surgical emergency, which I approved.

At 2:20 a.m. the surgeon called me to let me know that there was nothing she could do for my precious Noah. His stomach had ruptured from multiple tumors and there was nothing but dead tissue in place of his stomach. The only thing that could be done for him was to mercifully transition him from this earthly realm. She agreed that she could keep Noah comfortable under anesthesia until I arrived to be with him when the drugs were administered. I arrived at the hospital around 3:20 a.m., and around 3:30 a.m. Noah joined his beautiful sibling baby sister Abbygayle and adopted big kitty brother Eli in heaven's perfect garden.

Needless to say my heart is aching right now and the tears are flowing, but there are so many things I am thankful for - - one of them having had the honor and privilege of being his human caregiver all the 14 years of his sweet physical life. I will get a pawprint and his ashes back sometime within the next week.

I want to thank each of you for your comforting support during this time of great sorrow,

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[moon_beam]

It is Monday, 11/13/2017 and I cannot believe it's been 3 days now since I last held my beloved Noah in my arms to comfort him as his sweet Living Spirit transitioned from this earthly realm. I am now waiting for a telephone call telling me my beloved Noah's ashes and pawprints are ready for pick up.

With the critical medical challenges I have had over the past 2 years I knew my beloved Noah would be my last companion. Up until this time I had always thought that I would be able to have a companion in my life, but these past 2 years with extreme medical crises to deal with have taught me that this no longer is the case. It will be a HUGE major adjustment not having another living precious soul to care for. Another "reality check" in this grief adjustment journey. The holidays are quickly approaching and for me from this time forward they will be the "most horrible time of the year". I will have to put on my "public face" to endure the family gatherings with my brother and his wife in Bedford, knowing all the while my beloved Noah is no longer physically here to greet me when I get home making coming home almost unbearable. This house that used to hold so much joy over these 21 years is now empty, silent, and lifeless. I bought this home to be a safe haven for my companions, and it has been. Now there doesn't seem much purpose to stay here anymore. This place is too big for just me. I have begun the process of trying to get it ready to put up for sale next spring so that I can move to Bedford to be geographically closer to my brother and his wife making the travel distance shorter for my brother to help me with MD appointments, getting prescriptions from the pharmacy for me, etc.. Both of us are only getting older, and my brother is older than I am in age.

So this is how life is - - at least for now. I know it's all a part of the grieving process, but knowing this doesn't make the process any easier.

Peace and blessings,
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