My Beloved Noah Options

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At 1:52 a.m. I received a call from Noah's overnight physician from the ER hospital. A "quick" ultrasound was done on Noah at some point after I left visiting him, and fluid was found in his abdomen. A sample of the fluid was taken which showed definite bacteria - - which means something in my precious Noah's abdomen was perforated or leaking. This is always considered a surgical emergency, which I approved.

At 2:20 a.m. the surgeon called me to let me know that there was nothing she could do for my precious Noah. His stomach had ruptured from multiple tumors and there was nothing but dead tissue in place of his stomach. The only thing that could be done for him was to mercifully transition him from this earthly realm. She agreed that she could keep Noah comfortable under anesthesia until I arrived to be with him when the drugs were administered. I arrived at the hospital around 3:20 a.m., and around 3:30 a.m. Noah joined his beautiful sibling baby sister Abbygayle and adopted big kitty brother Eli in heaven's perfect garden.

Needless to say my heart is aching right now and the tears are flowing, but there are so many things I am thankful for - - one of them having had the honor and privilege of being his human caregiver all the 14 years of his sweet physical life. I will get a pawprint and his ashes back sometime within the next week.

I want to thank each of you for your comforting support during this time of great sorrow,

Peace and blessings,
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Hi, Kathy, thank you so much for your kind and comforting support. Right now tears are flowing so it's hard to see what I'm typing. I'm so glad he's no longer in pain. As his surgeon said last night this situation didn't happen overnight -- it was developing over a significant amount of time. When I think over these past 10 months I realize now how much he was hiding from me so that I wouldn't worry about him while I was in agonizing pain. I am so thankful that his last memory of me was one of decent health being on the RA medication which significantly reduced the intense pain so that I could once again hold him in my arms. What a joy it was to be able to do that again!!! I do have so many things to be thankful for and I"m trying to hold onto them and focus on them as I travel this horrible grief adjustment journey.

I"m so sorry about your precious Sunny's lab results. I know you're on a roller coaster ride now of embracing the good days and wondering when THE bad day will come when you may have to make that heartbreaking decision for your precious boy. Please know your precious Sunny and you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you once again, Kathy, for your comforting support. It is greatly appreciated.

Peace and blessings,
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