Our Little Princess "prissy", RIP 4-23-17 Options

[mswells]

It has been 2 weeks since my 12 year old dog "Prissy", a Pomeranian-Schipperke, went to the Rainbow Bridge on 4/23/17. I am still
very depressed, and numb. She was with me 24/7, as I work from Home also. We had quite the routine,
and now there is a great emptiness....even though we still have 2 cats and a cockatiel bird.
She was my High Maintenance Princess. She had Stomach Issues...IBD, and a blood Cyst on her chest that kept opening
up within the pas few months. Her medications consisted of: Omeprazole, Famotidine, Sucralfate, Metronidazole, Metoclopramide
syrup, and Cerenia. She was also on a specialized diet of Hills Canned ZD Dog Food. I wonder though, if having her on
all those Meds could have done more damage to her stomach or other organs. She had chronic bouts of IBD symptoms
that increased as the older she got. She would not eat anything for days, and would have chronic vomiting. She had been
to the vet a few times where they would keep her a couple days to rehydrate, and get her to eat again, and she would
be fine for a long while...then back it would come....only this time was real bad, and she was extremely lethargic, and would just stand over her water dish, in
a kind of a daze for 30 minutes or so at a time. We took her to the vet, and since her quality of life was not good now, and she was in pain, it was
decided to let her go to The Rainbow Bridge. I also wonder if the big blood cyst could have been the problem...or was it the IBD, in the end.
The cyst was never biopsied or removed, as the vet felt that at her age it could be risky, and it was not hurting her or getting in the way.
I just feel so Depressed, and numb from the events of the last 2 weeks....even though I god to hold her in my arms while the vet was assisting
in her travels to the Rainbow Bridge.
I am now creating a Memorial Garden in the backyard for her headstone.....even though her remains will stay on a devoted mantle, in the bedroom,
next to my other dog Emilio, who passed away in 2005.

Michael.

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[moon_beam]

Hi, Michael, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Indeed, the grief emotions of guilt / remorse can haunt our hearts and minds for quite awhile in the grief adjustment journey. Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is very normal deep grief but hopefully in time you will be able to find a peace in your heart that you did the very best for your beloved Prissy, and she is eternally grateful to you for loving her and putting her needs first above your personal wants, especially at a time when your heart began breaking under the most unbearable sorrow you will know on this side of eternity.

One of the many important things for you to remember is that you are not alone in your grief adjustment journey. We are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Thank you again, Michael, for letting us know how you're doing. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam