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[Vikki]

Hi, my name is Vikki. I am new. 2 weeks ago, I lost my beloved 7 year old cavalier king charles spaniel , George to congestive heart failure . We got George for my son, Ryan when he was 10. Ryan had always wanted a dog, but my cat was afraid. When my cat died, I searched for the perfect dog and found him. George was spoiled rotten, he ate with a fork, he had severe separation anxiety and went everywhere with us. We got a kitten as well, Major Anthony Nelson and they were best friends . We took George in for his check up and he was diagnosed with a stage 3 heart murmur. He had been to the vet a month earlier . I had multiple condults, multiple meds tried. My son left for the seminary as George was diagnosed. He lasted 2 weeks and was in stage 6. The Dr. Said he was dying, he could not breathe, and we put him to sleep. I have lost many cats , this is my first dog. I believe in some ways, George was sent to my son as an angel. My son was home schooled and did not have many friends. It just seems strange he died when my son left. I miss my baby George so much. I pray he is free of pain.
Thank you for listening .

[moon_beam]

Hi, Vikki, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I personally have not participated in the candlelight ceremonies, but understand from others who have that they are very meaningful for them. There are some websites that offer virtual candle memorials which you may want to check out as well.

I can so understand how you felt when you saw the cavalier as you share with us "I saw a cavalier yesterday and just started crying." It's hard seeing other precious souls in any situation when your heart is shattered with grief in the physical loss of your beloved companion. And all the "rationalizing" that your mind provides in an attempt to comfort you doesn't change the fact that your heart and arms ache to hold your beloved George "just one more time." This grief journey is one of adjusting to the physical absence of your beloved George, and it is a painful journey particularly during the deep grief.

I'm so sorry that your son and husband are not being supportive of you when you need them. I'm so glad you found this forum and hope you are finding the comfort, support, and encouragement you need as you travel your grief adjustment journey. I know I have mentioned this already, but it is important for you to know you are not alone - - we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Vikki, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved George's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam