Today I Sit Here Feeling Really Sad.. Still .. After 3 Months Options

[Audrey Basar]

I never knew what missing someone is really like until they're gone forever.. and you can not touch nor squeeze them ever again. And that realization of never being able to have them physically in your presence, is the worse feeling in the world.
I sit here just missing my little boy so so much. he was worth more than a human to me. he made me happy. made me at peace with life. was there for me through my hard times. always made me laugh. always kept my spirits up. then gone one day, hit by a car, killed so quick at age 2, right after finally growing up and behaving so well.. & i sit here thinking gosh, life is not fair at all. why did this happen? all my joy i had just completely gone.. its been over 3 months and i dont think i will ever stop missing my capone & wishing there was something I could of done to save him or prevent the situation from happening.. i am so lost and feel so lonely without him. i have a bf & luna & a new pup but it will never be the same and i do not ever feel the same happiness i felt when capone was there. my heart is so hurt still.. i feel like i will never ever stop crying over him... i try to tell my self look, its going to be ok. but truth is... its just not ok. I cant feel that happiness that i once felt...

I know some of you feel this way too and i just want to let you know your not alone..
we can all get through this together even though its the hardest thing ever... it may take a long time for some of us to heal, but we will one day...

<3 <3 <3

[moon_beam]

Hi, Audrey, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Our forum friend Lynette has shared many thoughts that are also in my heart. This grief adjustment journey is a very painful one both emotionally and physically, and unfortunately there are no fast forward or delete buttons we can press to speed it up or make it automatically disappear. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time sometimes one moment at a time. Please know we are here for you, with you, and beside you through every step of your grief journey, Audrey, to share the not so bad days, the not so good days, and the days when it feels like your heart can no longer endure the burden of your deepest grief.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Audrey, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Capone's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam