Four Months Since I Held My Buck, Grieving Options

[Jud]

I don't understand why I seem to be fine one day or even a week and then it hits me again. I can't believe he's been gone this long and knowing I can't hold him again is killing me.
I miss him so much. My heart is still breaking.
I have plans to go see his plaque in the memorial garden but I'm so afraid I will break down. I noticed that when I'm having a hard time I seem to have nightmares. Buck isn't in my dream but I wake up trying to scream. I really miss him so much.

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