Dear Friends, I haven't been able to be here... Options

[IndysMom]

Dear LS friends,
I am sorry I haven't been her for a few days. I have had a tough go this week.
The 3 week anniversary of Indy's death coincided with my birthday and my 93 year-old grandmother's admission to
a hospice center. Needless to say, I've had some overwhelming momments.
My grandmother has been aged and without quality of life for some 6 months now. I've prayed for her peaceful passing and know Indy awaits her. She was so fond of him and perhaps they will keep one another company until I arrive.
I was fearful that she would pass on my birhtday, but she did not. It would have been hard rememberance. I was unable to celebrate my day without Indy. My son and husband did their best but I didn't have the strength to particpate. My grief is still fresh.
Indy was a silly little boy and though it happend but a few times a year, he knew when there was birthday cake in the house. He danced and pranced when the candles burned. He was excited whenever he saw a wrapped present. I think he thought they were all for him and he would tug at the wrapping paper. Indy would try to climb in my lap and get as close to the cake as possible. He put on his best "sad beggin' eyes" until we would would give in and give him some.
I didn't have the strength to share my grief with the LS family. As a member, I also feel some resposibility to proivide support to you as you have for me. I didn't have the reserve to do so. I am sorry I couldn't be there for those of you you may have needed my words, but I kow so many of LS family were. But I am back now. I feel a bit better today.
I am in fact grateful that my poor little Indy is at Rainbow Bridge where I know it is warm and sunny. You see, we are under a blizzard warning today and tomorrow. Indy was so frail that he would not have done well with the single digit temps and the expected 30 inches of snow. I know, at least for this moment, he is in a better place.

[dietersmom]

Hi Fran,
I'm sorry to hear about your Grandmother and I know how you missed Indy for your Birthday. I promise with the passing of time the pain will lessen a bit. Please don't feel bad for taking a break from LS, most of us have to from time to time to heal. Please know you are in my thoughs.
Libby