Feeling Guilty, Feeling Guilty Options

[ChrissyW]

I don't post very often but it seems lately I am feeling guilty of an adoption that went wrong. I wanted/needed another dog similiar to my boy that passed away and went and found a dog at a local shelter. I was so happy and excited. My kids wanted another dog. But 3 long weeks with a dog that we lived around because of undisclosed illness I couldn't trust him around my children. My cats and other dogs were terrified of him and he tried to get aggressive with my husband so we got on the phone with rescues. No avail. No one wanted to talk to me or couldn't take him. I couldn't risk my children getting hurt. My vet was out and the rescue that kinda helped me ran me through the coals. I am not a vet and don't know why my vet did what he did for diagnosing this dog. Any way we ended having to take him back to the shelter. I didn't want to but for my children I did. I feel super guilty. I am not a bad person, in fact I wish I had a ranch and a lot of money to help animals. Granted our society doesn't really look at animals as part of a family but a possesion. This guilt leads to my boys death. Being a woman, when my hormones go wacky, it brings his death to the surface and I cry. I want him back. I guess I have made it easy on me by putting pictures up everywhere I am. I try to remember the good times. But the guilt doesn't seem to be leaving. I come here and I cry and feel for everyone here at LS. In a way I am sorry we had to come together in this time of sorrow. I also don't know if the sick dog got a new home or went to Rainbow Bridge to meet up with my boy. I hope he is not mad at me. As the title says I am feeling guilty. I just needed to say it somewhere. Thanks for listening.
ChrissyW

[Wanda]

Chrissy- I know what you mean about just coming here reading and not posting. I sometimes feel my response might not be right or it may be harsh. I know I wouldn't want to make someone feel worse then what they already are. I come here and read because it helps me. My beloved furkitty of 17-yrs passed in June and even though it'll soon be 7-mo ( tomorrow, 25th ) he's been gone it still hurts very much. I miss him so very much! I love him dearly!


Wanda