My Only Friends Died......... Options

[deadinsideforeve...]

My orange tabby cat Trevor died last Oct from cancer and then Angel my orange tabby died in Jan from cancer. It's killing me. So close together I can't believe it. I have their ashes on my dresser with my childhood cat Dawn and ny dog J.J. plus my aunts' dogs Muffin and Tickles.My aunt died of cancer so I took the ashes since no one else would. My dresser looks like some sort of grave site it's so depressing I can't sleep.........

[moon_beam]

Hi, deadinsideforever, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical losses of your beloved Trevor and Angel. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Losing more than one companion in a short period of time intensifies the grief.

Deadinside, this grief journey is one of the most painful experiences you will know on this side of eternity. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time sometimes one moment at a time for you are now on a journey that is filled with all the first withouts and the memories that can be all too painful right now that include this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year to endure. It doesn't matter if it's our first grief experience or our thousandth - - each grief journey is uniquely painful because each relationship we have with our individual companions is uniquely individual. In other words, it doesn't get easier as we experience more losses - - and it isn't meant to be.

I can truly understand how you are feeling as I have known multiple losses close to each other of beloved companions who have shared my earthly journey, and the grief is incredibly intense. The grief adjustment journey is difficult enough when we lose the physical presence of one companion. When we lose other companions so close together it can make us feel like our grief will truly never end.

But I assure you, deadinsideforever, that eventually the deep grief will ease and you will eventually be able to think of your beloved Trevor and Angel and find yourself smiling - - truly smiling - - and your heart will fill with the warmth of the many treasured and cherished memories you and your beloved companions share. Love is eternal, deadinsideforever - - it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Trevor's and Angel's, and all of your beloved companions', sweet Living Spirits are always and forever with you - - for they are always and forever in your heart and memories - - they are always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I know so very well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey.

Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Trevor and Angel, and all of your beloved companions who are no with the angels with us. Perhaps sometime you feel up to sharing pictures of them with us, but only when / if you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, deadinsideforever, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam