Missing You..........., Loss Options

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Esabella................
It will be two months tonight when Esabella went into respiratory arrest in Savannah, Georgia when we were on our way to Moms for Thanksgiving. Never thought it would happen like that. She was so happy and playful that morning. I still feel her pain as she suffered to breath as they put her on the respirator. The look in her eyes with love and pain still haunts me.
I sleep with her favorate toy every night. The face looks like Bella. Her pictures are everywhere and I talk to her, kissing her picture..................
I too, had a lot of guilt because I was moarning the death of my father when Esabella left my world. I adored my father, but the loss of Esabella was horrific, as well. Reading a recent post about a parent loss helped me. Thank you.
I am so thankful for the eight years I had with Esabella in my life and thank LS friends for helping me make it through the past two months.

You are alive in my heart............Esabella......................

[Rusty's Mom]

Dear Litebrez,

Thinking of you on this sad 2 month anniversary of the loss of your beautiful Esabella.

Thinking of you also - j4lorn, hegelsmom, Fran and Jilly as you all approach these sad "anniversaries".

It does feel like we're in a time vacuum for sure. Sometimes it seems like forever since we've seen Rusty and other times, it's like he was just here. My husband said it feels like we're living "someone else's life", when we look into Rusty's favorite room and see the emptiness.

Thank goodness for LS and the wonderful people here.

Lynn