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Esabella................
It will be two months tonight when Esabella went into respiratory arrest in Savannah, Georgia when we were on our way to Moms for Thanksgiving. Never thought it would happen like that. She was so happy and playful that morning. I still feel her pain as she suffered to breath as they put her on the respirator. The look in her eyes with love and pain still haunts me.
I sleep with her favorate toy every night. The face looks like Bella. Her pictures are everywhere and I talk to her, kissing her picture..................
I too, had a lot of guilt because I was moarning the death of my father when Esabella left my world. I adored my father, but the loss of Esabella was horrific, as well. Reading a recent post about a parent loss helped me. Thank you.
I am so thankful for the eight years I had with Esabella in my life and thank LS friends for helping me make it through the past two months.

You are alive in my heart............Esabella......................

[j4lorn]

Oh you all, it has been 5 months for me and I still feel that time vacuum, you're right jillybromley, it is such a strange feeling. IT feels like it was all just yesterday and at the same time it feels like it's been an eternity and also feels like time has just stood still, all at the same time. It is the oddest feeling.

I am kind of forgetting how Jake looked, all his expressions, his sweet face and his wooooowooooo's... it's been so long since I've seen him. But at the same time I have flashs of memory where I can see him crystal clear, remembering how he used to lay on the couch next to my hus and paw him for pets, his happy face as he went out in the backyard.. this grief is so weird, it's like everything and nothingness all rolled into one.