Missing Our Sweet Beagle Almond, Still can't believe it Options

[Thea]

Our poor baby was gone from us too soon. Last Saturday, we lost our Almond. I'm still in disbelief. I feel so devastated. That day, it felt like everything was against us. A late diagnosis despite being in and out of the clinic since Tuesday, no access for a blood transfusion, and me already being just outside the clinic when I heard the terrible news. Almond was our first dog, who was only just over a year old. Perhaps that's what makes it all the more painful. I feel responsible like I didn't take care of him enough, that maybe if we had access to better medical care he would be okay. I try not to think of the "what ifs" or the "maybe". But it's still there- the guilt and the blame just in the back of my mind. I know it's no use thinking about it, that we had no idea it would be this way, but all this negativity still finds a way to drown me.
Every moment still breaks my heart. Especially when I realize he really isn't here anymore. Like when I see the scratches on the door when he tried to reach the doorknob, the corner of the table he chewed on as a teething pup, the special collar with a bow tie he was supposed to wear for Christmas or no longer needing the small gate in the hallway or to hide my shoes. The house feels so empty. So quiet. I'm trying to accept that he really is gone and that he's in a better place happy and no longer in pain. I've made a memorial page to help cope with the loss but there are still moments that I miss him terribly especially when I remember favorite moments like him chasing my feet under the blanket, his silly little walk and wagging tail, curling up into a ball to sleep, showing his belly the moment I start petting him. Our sweet little Almond, I was hoping for more time together. More playing, lovely walks, games of fetch and chase. I know when the time comes we'll see you again and we can play and walk on the lush green grass, sleep while the gentle winds sing a lullaby and never be separated again. You will always be in our hearts, little one. Rest well and until we meet again.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Thea, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Indeed, during the deep grief adjustment journey it can seem like every moment of every hour of every day has its own "angel-versary" - - which are noticed even more as the days, weeks, months continue on since our beloved companion joined the angels. So please know that what you are feeling is a very normal part of this grief journey when you share with us "I remembered yesterday that it has been a month since he was gone and I started to miss him a lot more."

Your memorial to your beloved Almond sounds wonderful, Thea, and I'm so glad you are finding comfort in it. And how nice that your family and friends also found the memorial comforting. Please know your beloved Almond is eternally grateful to you for everything you did for him during his earthly journey, and is so blessed to have you for his Forever Mom, and you are equally blessed to be his soul heir to his eternal love.

Thank you again so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Almond with us, Thea. Please know we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us - - there are no "expiration dates" here for sharing with us what is in your heart and on your mind.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Thea, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Almond's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam