Missing Our Sweet Beagle Almond, Still can't believe it Options

[Thea]

Our poor baby was gone from us too soon. Last Saturday, we lost our Almond. I'm still in disbelief. I feel so devastated. That day, it felt like everything was against us. A late diagnosis despite being in and out of the clinic since Tuesday, no access for a blood transfusion, and me already being just outside the clinic when I heard the terrible news. Almond was our first dog, who was only just over a year old. Perhaps that's what makes it all the more painful. I feel responsible like I didn't take care of him enough, that maybe if we had access to better medical care he would be okay. I try not to think of the "what ifs" or the "maybe". But it's still there- the guilt and the blame just in the back of my mind. I know it's no use thinking about it, that we had no idea it would be this way, but all this negativity still finds a way to drown me.
Every moment still breaks my heart. Especially when I realize he really isn't here anymore. Like when I see the scratches on the door when he tried to reach the doorknob, the corner of the table he chewed on as a teething pup, the special collar with a bow tie he was supposed to wear for Christmas or no longer needing the small gate in the hallway or to hide my shoes. The house feels so empty. So quiet. I'm trying to accept that he really is gone and that he's in a better place happy and no longer in pain. I've made a memorial page to help cope with the loss but there are still moments that I miss him terribly especially when I remember favorite moments like him chasing my feet under the blanket, his silly little walk and wagging tail, curling up into a ball to sleep, showing his belly the moment I start petting him. Our sweet little Almond, I was hoping for more time together. More playing, lovely walks, games of fetch and chase. I know when the time comes we'll see you again and we can play and walk on the lush green grass, sleep while the gentle winds sing a lullaby and never be separated again. You will always be in our hearts, little one. Rest well and until we meet again.

[lynette]

Hi Thea.

So very sorry for your loss. I have three beagles so I know what they're all about. They are one of the most lovable dogs there is - I think. I've lost a few dogs over the years, so like everyone else here I can relate to what you're feeling.

It's hard enough losing them when they're old, but to lose them before their time is just unbearable. This is a great place to grieve. I've been coming here since I lost my Hunny back in 2009. Everyone is so good.

It'll take time to heal and I know there is really nothing that can be said to make the pain go away right now. You have a great circle of friends to help.

Sorry for your loss. He was (is) definitely a real cutie.

Take care.

Lynette.

[Thea]

Hi Lynette

Thank you so much for the kind words and support.

I agree beagles and dogs in general are just full of love and even when they're gone physically, you can still feel their love embracing you.

It is unbearable it was like it's only now sinking in that he's gone. Yes everyone here is so nice. Before I became validated I was reading some of the other posts and replies and I could feel the warmth in their words.

I'm so sorry about your Hunny. I'm sure the good people here have shared words of kindness and support to you as well.

Thank you Lynette for sharing. I'm feeling a lot better and though there are still moments of pain and sadness everyone here has been so nice and I really am grateful.

This place has been a great outlet for my grief. And though I can't see anyone, I feel the empathy right here on my screen. <3

Hi Thea.

So very sorry for your loss. I have three beagles so I know what they're all about. They are one of the most lovable dogs there is - I think. I've lost a few dogs over the years, so like everyone else here I can relate to what you're feeling.

It's hard enough losing them when they're old, but to lose them before their time is just unbearable. This is a great place to grieve. I've been coming here since I lost my Hunny back in 2009. Everyone is so good.

It'll take time to heal and I know there is really nothing that can be said to make the pain go away right now. You have a great circle of friends to help.

Sorry for your loss. He was (is) definitely a real cutie.

Take care.

Lynette.