Dear Friends, I haven't been able to be here... Options

[IndysMom]

Dear LS friends,
I am sorry I haven't been her for a few days. I have had a tough go this week.
The 3 week anniversary of Indy's death coincided with my birthday and my 93 year-old grandmother's admission to
a hospice center. Needless to say, I've had some overwhelming momments.
My grandmother has been aged and without quality of life for some 6 months now. I've prayed for her peaceful passing and know Indy awaits her. She was so fond of him and perhaps they will keep one another company until I arrive.
I was fearful that she would pass on my birhtday, but she did not. It would have been hard rememberance. I was unable to celebrate my day without Indy. My son and husband did their best but I didn't have the strength to particpate. My grief is still fresh.
Indy was a silly little boy and though it happend but a few times a year, he knew when there was birthday cake in the house. He danced and pranced when the candles burned. He was excited whenever he saw a wrapped present. I think he thought they were all for him and he would tug at the wrapping paper. Indy would try to climb in my lap and get as close to the cake as possible. He put on his best "sad beggin' eyes" until we would would give in and give him some.
I didn't have the strength to share my grief with the LS family. As a member, I also feel some resposibility to proivide support to you as you have for me. I didn't have the reserve to do so. I am sorry I couldn't be there for those of you you may have needed my words, but I kow so many of LS family were. But I am back now. I feel a bit better today.
I am in fact grateful that my poor little Indy is at Rainbow Bridge where I know it is warm and sunny. You see, we are under a blizzard warning today and tomorrow. Indy was so frail that he would not have done well with the single digit temps and the expected 30 inches of snow. I know, at least for this moment, he is in a better place.

[CheriAnn]

Dear Indys Mom,

You don't have to apologize to us! We have all been through different stages of grief, and there are times that we all need to "get away" for a time. Whether it's to recharge or to take care of some responsibilities. We will always be here for you when you feel the need to come back. You shouldn't feel pressured to respond to other postings either. Not everybody knows what to say or if they can even offer support when they are feeling so badly themselves. Just concentrate on getting yourself better emotionally. We're patient

Also, Happy Belated Birthday! It just seems very depressing for oyu right now, which I'm sure made it hard to celebrate for you. I'm sorry you are dealing with grandmother's transfer to a Hospice. However, I'm sure she will be very well taken care of there. My grandfather was admitted to one years ago before he passed away.

SNOW, SNOW and SNOW!!!! We're getting all that snow ourselves! They're not calling for as much as you say, but our area is expecting up to 12 inches through today and tomorrow. That's alot of snow for us! The snow makes me miss my Rachael more, though. She just LOVED the snow! She'd bury her whole face down into it. It looked so cute

Take care of yourself!
Cheri