Guilt Over My Precious Baby's Death From Snakebite, RIP Jackie Options

[annelize]

Hi I live in South Africa in Mpumalanga (in the woods). I had 5 furbabies. 4 jack russels and a boerboel. My dogs just love the woods and I use to take them in the woods for a walk twice a week and then I would take their leashes of and they would explore. But on 29 May 2015 my whole life changed into a nightmare when one of my precious jack russels x baby Jackie was suddenly bitten by a huge puff adder. I was too scared to try and save her and all I could do is grab her and rushed her to the vet. The vet administrated 5 viles of antivenom and she was in ICU the whole night but sadly passed away the next morning due to anaphylaxis. My heart was in pieces. I couldnt believe that I could not save my baby. The guilt I have now is because I took her into the woods into the danger. I took her to the snake not knowing it was there and I couldnt drag her away or do something to save her. I miss her lively little voice and wet nose so much I dont know if I will ever get over this.

[moon_beam]

Hi, annelize, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Each of us truly understand how you are feeling when you share with us: "I do feel a bit better now about the guilt but still very very sad because I miss her so much." When our beloved companions precede us to the angels, they take a part of us with them - - a part that belongs only to them - - so that they will have a part of us with them in eternal joy as they patiently wait for our appropriate time to join them in eternal joy. Hopefully as your deep grief eases your heart will be able to embrace the many treasured memories you and your beloved Jackie share to help ease the emptiness in your heart due to her physical absence.

This grief adjustment journey is fililed with many ups and downs, twists and turns, and turnarounds. Please know you are among friends here who truly do understand what you are going through, - - we are here for you, with you, and beside you to share the not so bad days, the not so good days, and the days when it feels like your heart is breaking under the burden of your deepest sorrow.

I hope today is treating you kindly, annelize, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Jackie's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam