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[hewasmybestfrien...]

In April, I adopted my parents' cat PJ, and brought her to live with me. I grew up with her, we adopted her when I was in high school. She is a beautiful fat brown and white rag doll who has never hurt anyone or anything in her life. She likes to communicate in either chirps or very breathy silent meows, and loves to snuggle and spoon with me and will flop down and then wriggle until she is perfectly comfortable. I have such a long history with her. She is 11 years old. When I first brought her to live with me I had an exam and bloodwork done, nothing too abnormal.

On Monday, she started vomiting bile, and stopped eating. I took her to work with me (I work at a vet) Tuesday for anti nausea meds. On Wednesday we did fluids and bloodwork.....calcium and kidney values way elevated. She had become increasingly lethargic. Last night her breathing started to grow harsher and she started hanging her head over her water dish. I took her to emergency and was there til 1 am. They kept her overnight and she is still there right now.

Either she has cancer (kidney lymphoma), kidney failure or both. She did not respond well to IV fluids. When I left last this afternoon, she was on oxygen and barely responsive, though she did respond to my pets and seemed to recognize me. The doctor said that she is way sicker than normally presents for kidney disease or even lymphoma.

The doctor told me that he can do a biopsy of her kidneys, but with her breathing and fluid in her chest cavity, she may not survive the sedation. I am currently waiting for the phone call to find out if she made it or not. I am numb and panicked all at once. We may not even get the biopsy results until tomorrow.

You all may remember me as Smedley's owner, he passed away January 1. I cannot deal with this again. I can't go through this again. I can't believe this.

If she survives, she will have to suffer with kidney failure or chemo or whatever else is going on. I have to choose whether her quality of life would be worth it for a few more months.

I feel so guilty for feeling like I wasn't ready to bring her up here to live with me and didn't want her to come at first, due to struggling so much with Smedley's death, but of course that changed when she got here. She is so sweet and loving and to see her as a shell of herself hurts so badly. She doesn't deserve this, any of this suffering.

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[moon_beam]

Hi, Heartbroken, please permit me to add my sincerest comfort and encouragement to you during this very difficult time with your precious PJ's health crisis. I'm so glad to share your news that she survived the kidney biopsy procedure and hope the results will give you and the veterinary care providers answers you need in order to make decisions for your precious PJ.

It doesn't matter what the circumstances are that result in the physical passing of our companions from their earthly journey. Our hearts are broken enduring the most painful adjustment to their physical absence. Your precious PJ is so blessed to have you take care of her. Whatever happens she knows she is loved - - and that is the most important thing for her to know.

Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your precious PJ with us. She is sooooo beautiful. Please know you and your precious PJ are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know what the results of the biopsy are and how things are going.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam