Utter Devastation, Abby's Passing Options

[Abby's Mommy]

I do not wish to share this post.

[Pamela]

I think hegelsmom is doing the right thing to find healing. I also have been worried about you. Maybe you should talk to your family doc at this point and see if there is anything they can do to help you through. I am getting ready for some big changes, I am moving from this rental. It is very odd you see because after Moose died I couldn't get out of here fast enough, I would have packed and ran that day, but that is how I react to things my mind cant handle, now that I am moving, it is strange because I am leaving the last place Moose and I lived, I am leaving those corners of the home he occupied. I am leaving the street where I lost him. It seems like another ending. I am also struggling with depression and loss of self esteem, I just have a hard time getting excited about anything and just want to crawl into a corner and hide from the world....but meanwhile rent is not being paid because the 8 wks I was completely nonfunctional my bills pilled up. The loss of Moose has caused so many changes in my life, I'm just hanging on to it by a thread somedays, feel like somedays I am truly losing my mind. Losing our babies effects so much of our being it is a soul ache. Pamela