I Miss My Boy--it's Been One Week Options

[caponemom]

It's been one week today that my sweet boy Capone left us. He had sudden kidney failure and we were told by the vet it was time. It all happened so fast and I was quite a mess all last week. He was almost 12 years old and
we really thought there would be more time with him. I think of him everyday, several times. It has gotten somewhat better. I find when I'm at work and occupied I'm OK, but when I see his picture on my phone or
look at his urn with his ashes, or toys, I still mist up. We took our other Lab to the park yesterday and I cried because we had planned on taking both dogs there together. I know he misses his buddy and that makes me sad also.
The car ride to and from work is long and that's when I think of him most and cry. Today was the first day I didn't cry (a lot) It still hurts, but I must say that just being on this chat room and hearing other's stories has
helped me immensely. Just knowing that other's are going thru similar situations and that they understand how it feels makes a huge difference. I know it will take some time before I can look at his pictures and think of him and smile instead of cry, but I really feel like I'm getting there and hope that others who read this will
feel that as well. At this time last week I couldn't imagine smiling or laughing again, but now I know that I can. I will never fully heal (it feels like) but as time goes on I know it'll get better.
So if I can say one thing to everyone who feels lost and alone and overcome with sadness, please know with a little time and the help of friends and family, it will be OK. You will smile again

Thanks for listening and God bless you all.

[goldenthings74]

The worst part for me is that EVERY site I go... states high survival rate even if the dog is old AND great success story on how surgery helped, not ONE story where a dog has died during or after surgery. This makes me feel worse, I should have never euthanized my dog. I should have gone ahead with surgery. I don't think there is anyone on this website whom have done surgery with unsuccessful results... not that I wish that but it would help me with closure to hear that dogs can still die even with surgery.