I Lost Mira, My Best Friend, I'm in a personal hell. Options

[AugustusS]

Hello. I desperately need someone to talk to here and there and just don't understand this site. I posted in a spot and don't know if this spot is right either. Nobody will reply. Please help. I'm a nice guy I just need some support with losing my angel. It was such a tragedy I'm just in agony ans hell.

[Mary k Par]

Agustus,

Thank you for sharing yours and Mira's story. What an incredibly beautiful girl! You two obviously shared a very special bond.

I am no expert, but the common ground here is we understand your feelings and the depth of those feelings. I love that you're so open about that. I don't know that there is one thing that will make the hurt lessen. Just know that we all care and are hoping for peace and healing for you.

I feel like in my day to day life, I have to put on a happy face. One thing moon_beam mentioned was that even if I had to go somewhere to let my grief out, I needed to do that. So last night I had a glass of wine and went upstairs (husband is on a business trip and kids went to bed). Once I got snuggled in, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I cried and cried. And cried some more. I talked to my Halle, told her I loved her and that I wished I could snuggle with her and take just one more walk. I woke up looking horrible, but I absolutely needed to just let loose. I had not done that since shortly after I lost Halle.

A couple of other things: You'd mentioned one picture you wanted to get a professional to make into something special. That is one gorgeous photo by the way. Anyhow, Canvas on Demand does a great job. You can look at their website, and if I remember correctly, they're reasonably priced. Secondly, there is another website called the Animal Rescue Site. Anything purchased has the funds go to homeless animals. Before Halle died, I got a stainless steel ring that I wear every day. On the inside is a beautiful saying. After Halle died, I got a remembrance car charm to hang on the rear view mirror. It's pretty cool, and I got one for me and both my daughters. Maybe you can find something that touches your heart...whenever you're ready to look.

Agustus, I admire your candidness and especially the love you carry for Mira. I hope you soon find peace and comfort.

Mary