I Miss My Bruno Options

[Shaknown]

Yesterday was the saddest moment I have ever had to deal with. I had to put my Bruno down. I have had him since he was a puppy. He was 5 years old. He started off with Valley Fever and has been dealing with that for a long time. I had him on medicine and though it was ok. Three months ago he went to the vet and they said his valley fever went down but still very high so they uped his dose. Last week I started to notice he was not eating or drinking. He was losing weight. I took him into the vet and they did testing on him. They said he was anemic and had a kidney infection. Since he was not drinking water we had him on an iv. He was then on kidney medicine and antibiotic. He still was not eating so they gave me prednizone to help with his appetite. That was not working. He all of a sudden could not walk and his body just gave up. He was stuck to the ground and could not move. I forced fed him but he would just throw it all up. We got him into the vet Saturday and they said at this point his kidneys are shutting down and he lost all his muscle. We need to put him down right now. My boyfriend called me to tell me because I was at work. I wanted to say goodbye so he brought him back home and he stayed his last night with us. I talked to him and laid with him all day and night. I could not eat, drink or sleep. My body was shaking. I was so scared to walk over and not see him breathe anymore. I know my baby was in pain and had to make the hardest choice of putting him down. So yesterday I told him I loved him so much and it was going to be ok. Me and my family cried and cried. My Bruno could barely lift his head but when he did he put it towards mine and put his paw on my arm. I lost it. I tried to hard not to let him see me cry so he was not even more sad. Now that he is gone nothing is the same. I am very depressed. I find myself going outside and just looking at his favorite spot. I cant even look at his dog bowl without crying. I never want to get another pet again. I already have another dog and just try to love her as much as I can but it is so hard.

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[caponemom]

Hi Shaknown,
I read your post and had to respond. My husband and I also had to put down our beloved Lab Capone this past Monday. It came as quite a shock, he didn't give us much indication there was a problem
except his back legs were getting a little wobbly lately. We just figured it was because he was getting older. He still had a very happy energetic disposition. This past Saturday afternoon, he was having
trouble getting up and by Sunday he could not get up by himself at all, we took him to the Emergency vet and he received a shot in each hind leg and got some pain pills. I was very scared but hopeful that
this was all that was wrong. Early Monday morning he was clearly uncomfortable and could not move much. My husband spent the the rest of the night on the floor next to him and stayed home from work that day.
He took Capone to the vet and texted me they were doing some xrays and bloodwork. I got the call from him around 2:30 that it was bad and there was nothing to be done for him. He had kidney failure.
I was at work and immediately left to get to the vet's office. I cried the entire way. We had some nice time with our boy before they gave him the injection to put him to sleep. I have not stopped crying since. I am still in shock,
wondering why??? We thought we had much more time with him and it hurts so much to see his toys, bowls and the house is just emptier. We have another Lab, Dugan, who is not sure what is going on,
just that his buddy isn't here. We got his ashes from the vet today, so now our boy is back home with us. It breaks my heart as I imagine yours is too. I know that with time we will both be fine.
I know that I will be able to look at his pictures and toys and not cry, and maybe even start to smile. With each day it will hurt just a little less, being replaced with special memories of your time with him.
I really think just hearing other people's experiences helps to ease the pain also. We aren't alone. Other people understand and feel what we feel. Our vet and staff were wonderful and made a difficult time much easier.
God Bless,
Capone's mom