I Miss My Bruno Options

[Shaknown]

Yesterday was the saddest moment I have ever had to deal with. I had to put my Bruno down. I have had him since he was a puppy. He was 5 years old. He started off with Valley Fever and has been dealing with that for a long time. I had him on medicine and though it was ok. Three months ago he went to the vet and they said his valley fever went down but still very high so they uped his dose. Last week I started to notice he was not eating or drinking. He was losing weight. I took him into the vet and they did testing on him. They said he was anemic and had a kidney infection. Since he was not drinking water we had him on an iv. He was then on kidney medicine and antibiotic. He still was not eating so they gave me prednizone to help with his appetite. That was not working. He all of a sudden could not walk and his body just gave up. He was stuck to the ground and could not move. I forced fed him but he would just throw it all up. We got him into the vet Saturday and they said at this point his kidneys are shutting down and he lost all his muscle. We need to put him down right now. My boyfriend called me to tell me because I was at work. I wanted to say goodbye so he brought him back home and he stayed his last night with us. I talked to him and laid with him all day and night. I could not eat, drink or sleep. My body was shaking. I was so scared to walk over and not see him breathe anymore. I know my baby was in pain and had to make the hardest choice of putting him down. So yesterday I told him I loved him so much and it was going to be ok. Me and my family cried and cried. My Bruno could barely lift his head but when he did he put it towards mine and put his paw on my arm. I lost it. I tried to hard not to let him see me cry so he was not even more sad. Now that he is gone nothing is the same. I am very depressed. I find myself going outside and just looking at his favorite spot. I cant even look at his dog bowl without crying. I never want to get another pet again. I already have another dog and just try to love her as much as I can but it is so hard.

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