Feeling Devastated Options

[Princessmommy]

Hello Everyone I'm new to this website and I recently lost my baby girl kitten princess on (June 16, 2014) due to a car hitting her. I still remember like it was yesterday that she was brought into my life princess was a street kitten I actually saved her from my neighbors dog when he was trying to attack her. This dog was attacking her bad so my heart was hurting that I decided to get her out. Well that very instant that princess was in my arms she brought a lot of joy into my whole life. I still remember that it was in winter time and since I live with my mother I didn't know if she wanted me to keep her in the house or not. So We had to leave the poor thing outside in the cold in order to ask permission. I did made sure that she was warm in a blanket before I left her outside. Then in the very morning without me telling my mother her heart completely melted as soon as she saw my baby princess out in the back porch. She immediately carry her into her arms and brought her inside an thats when the whole story started with my baby princess. We began to care for her because she was seriously hurt because of that dog biting her. Every day we feed her bath her and gave her all the love anyone could give a beautiful baby calico kitten like she was. before princess arrive into my life I never knew I was a pet lover an how much love a pet could bring to someone's life. Day by day my love began to grow for my princess and I was practically her mommy, her legal guardian because she was always by my side. She was a very cuddling kitty that also loved to play with all my kids. she was never a cruel animal like most of them are. She was always whiling to give all from her to my whole family. Until that horrible accident happen on June 16, 2014. That day I was not home an this happen at night when I return home I couldn't believe my eyes I still remember I didn't park my car right and immediately rush out of my car running because I saw a cat in the middle of the road not wanting to believe it was my princess. As soon as I approach her I immediately let out a huge scream it was my baby princess the one lying there with one of her eyes pop out sad.gif I immediately broke down into tears pick her up hold her in my arms wishing that she was not dead and still alive. I began to scream please princess please come back to me baby girl Please tell me that this is all a dream that you are still with me. But She was not moving or doing anything at that very moment I didn't want to leave her sight or have anyone take her from me.

But apparently my husband took her from me and I was screaming and saying noooo!!! you cannot be gone princess at that very moment I didn't know how to react I was in a complete shock just by looking at my baby girl with one of her eyes pop out. It was one of the most horrible things I could ever experience in my whole life not even a human being hurt me as much as my princess did. Now I blame myself how can I didn't do anything to save my girl by taking her to a vet to have her check. Maybe if I took her She would of still be alive by now, but at that very instant I didn't know what to do but break down into tears and until this day even though it been 3 months since I lost her. I can't find peace or comfort that she is no longer with me. My family doesn't care of what I'm feeling now not even my husband. I'm completely alone in my grief process I feel so lonely that ever since that happen to my girl I been trying to reach out for help but unfortunately I been unsuccessful. I don't know what to do or who to turn to in order to help me with this healing process this whole experience I'm facing right now is causing me a lot of stress in my personal life. I have no friends to even talk to or just to say hey how you are doing today. I'm just so depress I wish my family was able to understand how much I'm hurting right now. All they say is hurtful things and tell me you are over reacting she was just a cat sooner or later you will buy another one. How can they say that she was not just an animal she was my baby my best friend my everything and I can't seem to live without her. I'm going crazy right now I'm even seeing my girl everywhere I go her scratches in the door, meows, her little face in my room, I even feel a presence trying to get in top of my bed in the middle of the night. I'm so miserable right now that nothing seems the same I'm even losing desire of the things I just to enjoy before help!!! The reason I decided to join this website is because I saw the word pet loss and I immediately thought that maybe in this place I was able to receive some kind of guidance or support in helping me with this loss I'm going through right now. I'm not sure if others are experiencing the same loss like me, but if you guys are I'm so sorry my heart goes out to each and everyone of us who are going through a loss or had one before. I'm not sure if this is the correct place to post my story if not let me know where I'm able to post it so that people are able to read it and provide me with at least some feedback. I can't take this pressure pain anymore I need some help from anyone in here in how to feel better an what to do when this type of things happen. thanks for reading sad

I will like to share a picture of my princess so that everyone is able to meet her I hope I uploaded right and everyone is able to see it. if not let me know thanks everyone.

Sincerely,

Mayra

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[moon_beam]

Hi, Mayra, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Princess. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Losing a companion so tragically intensifies the grief.

Mayra, this grief journey is one of the hardest experiences you will know on this side of eternity. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time, in your own way in your own time because you are now on a journey that is filled with all the first withouts and the memories that can be all too painful right now that include this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year to endure. It is a journey that is filled with many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride.

Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling and experiencing is very normal deep grief - - very painful both emotionally and physically, yes - - still very normal. We live in a physically oriented world governed by the five senses of sight, sound, taste, touch, and smell. Every time our companions touch / rub against us, kiss / lick us they are literally chemically imprinting themselves onto us so that they can identify us from the many other people on this planet. When our companions precede us to the angels we literally go through a chemical withdrawal from this imprinting, which is one of the many reasons why this grief adjustment journey is so very painful both emotionally and physically.

Although clinical professionals recognize that the grief journey for the physical loss of a beloved companion is the same as for a human family member or friend, unfortunately our society in general, and sadly sometimes the people who are closest to us emotionally and geographically, do not. This is one of the many reasons why this wonderful forum is here for each of us to come to share what is in our hearts with people who truly do understand. Please know we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us, Mayra.

In the depth of your sorrow as you travel your grief adjustment journey to the physical absence of your beloved Princess there is one thing that will never change: the love bond you and your beloved Princess share. Love is eternal, Mayra, it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Princess' sweet Living Spirit continues to share your earthly journey as she always has and always will - - for she is always and forever a part of your heart and memories, Mayra - - she is always and forever a heartbeat close to you. And one of the ways our beloved companions let us know they are still with us is through the many experiences you already have had as you share with us: "I'm even seeing my girl everywhere I go her scratches in the door, meows, her little face in my room, I even feel a presence trying to get in top of my bed in the middle of the night." Please let me try to reassure you that you are NOT losing your mind. Many of us here, including me, experience the same thing with our beloved companions as they reach across the Rainbow Bridge to let us know they are still forever with us even though we can no longer physically see or touch them.

Unfortunately there is no easy way to navigate this grief adjustment journey. It is not a "straight line" journey from "A" to "Z" but rather a journey that has many ups and downs, twists and turns, and turnarounds - - particularly during the deep grief. But I assure you, Mayra, that it will not always be this way. One day when you least expect it you will be thinking of your beloved Princess and you will find yourself smiling - - truly smiling - - and your heart will feel the warmth of your and your beloved Princess' eternal love once again. But until this time comes for you, please know we are here for you.

I know all too well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey.

Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Princess with us, Mayra, and this wonderful picture of your sweet little girl. She is so adorable. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Mayra, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Princessmommy]

Hi, Mayra, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Princess. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Losing a companion so tragically intensifies the grief.

Mayra, this grief journey is one of the hardest experiences you will know on this side of eternity. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time, in your own way in your own time because you are now on a journey that is filled with all the first withouts and the memories that can be all too painful right now that include this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year to endure. It is a journey that is filled with many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride.

Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling and experiencing is very normal deep grief - - very painful both emotionally and physically, yes - - still very normal. We live in a physically oriented world governed by the five senses of sight, sound, taste, touch, and smell. Every time our companions touch / rub against us, kiss / lick us they are literally chemically imprinting themselves onto us so that they can identify us from the many other people on this planet. When our companions precede us to the angels we literally go through a chemical withdrawal from this imprinting, which is one of the many reasons why this grief adjustment journey is so very painful both emotionally and physically.

Although clinical professionals recognize that the grief journey for the physical loss of a beloved companion is the same as for a human family member or friend, unfortunately our society in general, and sadly sometimes the people who are closest to us emotionally and geographically, do not. This is one of the many reasons why this wonderful forum is here for each of us to come to share what is in our hearts with people who truly do understand. Please know we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us, Mayra.

In the depth of your sorrow as you travel your grief adjustment journey to the physical absence of your beloved Princess there is one thing that will never change: the love bond you and your beloved Princess share. Love is eternal, Mayra, it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Princess' sweet Living Spirit continues to share your earthly journey as she always has and always will - - for she is always and forever a part of your heart and memories, Mayra - - she is always and forever a heartbeat close to you. And one of the ways our beloved companions let us know they are still with us is through the many experiences you already have had as you share with us: "I'm even seeing my girl everywhere I go her scratches in the door, meows, her little face in my room, I even feel a presence trying to get in top of my bed in the middle of the night." Please let me try to reassure you that you are NOT losing your mind. Many of us here, including me, experience the same thing with our beloved companions as they reach across the Rainbow Bridge to let us know they are still forever with us even though we can no longer physically see or touch them.

Unfortunately there is no easy way to navigate this grief adjustment journey. It is not a "straight line" journey from "A" to "Z" but rather a journey that has many ups and downs, twists and turns, and turnarounds - - particularly during the deep grief. But I assure you, Mayra, that it will not always be this way. One day when you least expect it you will be thinking of your beloved Princess and you will find yourself smiling - - truly smiling - - and your heart will feel the warmth of your and your beloved Princess' eternal love once again. But until this time comes for you, please know we are here for you.

I know all too well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey.

Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Princess with us, Mayra, and this wonderful picture of your sweet little girl. She is so adorable. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Mayra, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Awww thank you so much for those kind words Moon beam I really appreciated your words gave me so much peace and comfort and I never thought that someone will care and say those wonderful words to me. I never thought that a pet could hurt so much that only a human being was able to hurt us but not a companion such as our pets. unfortunately yes I cant believe our closest family is able to hurt us the most instead of them being their for us in any sense of the word. But now I feel that how can someone understand what you are going through if they never own a pet before? only people that own pets are able to understand how it feels like to loss a best friend. My princess was my first kitten and what hurts me more is having her for such a short time. She was only with my 6 months I wish I was able to share more wonderful moments with her. But apparently one dumb driver took her from me, I'm just so upset and hurt right now that I wish the worst to that driver that cause me this horrible pain. I just don't get it how can someone have a bad heart and kill a small in defensive pet and just leave them in the middle of the road without helping her/him. My princess was just a baby that still needed her mommy to protect her but I feel awful because I was not able to protect her that night and now she is gone. I feel like I betrayed her in all the sense of the word. I feel so shame of myself I'm not sure if I will ever feel better of this loss I'm experiencing right now I cry day and night going back to were my princess grave is and just taking her out I really miss her