My Rocky Boy Options

[Rockyboy]

It's been four weeks today since you passed and I still miss you more than words could ever convey. I remember the night we got you, I had just started high school and I could hear you crying from your crate in the middle of the night, so I snuck out of bed and spent the night with you. You could fit into the palm of my hand and you just wanted somebody to stay with you. I got in trouble from mum the next morning but it was worth it. You did so well at puppy pre-school and learnt all their commands easily, such a clever boy. You'd always bring the newspaper in for us when it was delivered and if your water bowl ever got empty you'd carry it over to us so we could fill it up. I remember you shaking and trying to hide whenever the mobile dog wash lady arrived, but then being so proud and prancing around the house to show off that you'd had a bath afterwards. I remember not walking you as much as I should have when you were younger, and I'm so sorry for it. I tried to make up for it the last few years, especially the last year where I began taking you to different parks almost every day. Those days of sitting by you watching the world go by were one of the happiest of my life. I remember you trusting that we knew what was best for you, and being on your best behavior at the vets though it scared you so much being there. I remember the way you could cheer me up better than anybody else could when I was having a rough day. I remember you barking at me when you wanted to play, and doing little half jumps with your squeekie toys. You wanted me to try to get the toys off you but you didn't want to give them to me. You would get so excited every time I bought you a new toy that I kept buying you them just to see that reaction, even though you had a whole crate full. I remember you always looking back to make sure I was still following whilst we were out walking together. I remember every time we walked past your sister's house you'd refuse to walk further unless I let you go in and say hello to her from the gate. I remember the days you put on a brave face though I could tell you were feeling bad. I remember you coming out of the first seizure you had, and giving me a lick to reassure me because I was panicking. I remember the last visit to a park we made, where you were happy and had more energy than usual. I was so thankful for that.

I remember you, my beautiful boy, and the amazing 13 years that you gave me. I love you and hope you're running free and happy.

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[iloveeva]

Thank you Gretta's mum, I will need to remember that. I think my rocky boy listened to you as he appeared to me in a dream last night, the first one in weeks. He appeared out of nowhere and ran towards me happy and healthy, he had a feather on his head and back, it was amazing to see him even just through a dream.

Ohh -- feathers are symbolic in dreams! I know white feathers found in real life after a death are typically considered a message from the deceased, but I just hopped on google and found that white feathers in a dream symbolize "travel" or "the ability to move more freely" or "innocence" or a "spiritual fresh start!" That sounds like a lovely message from Rocky! I found those meanings on whats-your-sign.com, who knows how reliable a source it is, but still.....!!

Eva's mum, thank you you're right about the grudges- if only humans could have as much love inside them as dogs do the world would be a much better place. I hope you are fairing ok with Eva's loss, perhaps rocky and her have met and become buddies wherever they are

If I could only be half the woman Eva thought I was, despite all the mistakes I made with her, and my impatience & frustration (that I kick myself for every single day) with her aggression as it first surfaced... :'(

I do wonder whether our dogs have met Eva always did better with male dogs than female; she was used as a breeding dam multiple times and, well, she had a flirty side until we had her spayed I bet they are romping around up there - looks like Rocky loved to play, and Eva loved (LOVED) a game of fetch!