Rufus Has Moved!, But he took my love and tears with him Options

[Gretta's Mom]

Hello Lightning Strikers

You have helped me so much with the passing of my beautiful black dog, Rufus. He is half black lab and half Newfie. Your words have made my grief and loneliness easier to bear and I hope some of my words have helped somebody else, too.

Rufus, I am going to try again to make you a big green "welcome" message. I hope it works but I'm pretty sure it won't!

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Well I see I have failed again, but know that all the animals in this part of Lightning Strike welcome you.

Have a beautiful day, My Big Black Dog!

Your mom

[Gretta's Mom]

Hi Baby Rufus

I'm sorry I haven't written for so long. This site keep locking me out and I am just too sad to try to fix it. I miss you so much, my beautiful big black dog. I need you strength. I need your love. I need your fearlessness and your cheerfulness - your happiness that makes you run up to a rabbit who doesn't try to run away - only to find it is a statue. And then you laughed with us because you realized we were laughing because we loved you.

I've been here for three months and I truly don't know what to do. In some ways it feels like I should leave a go out on my own, but in some ways it doesn't. I would like my little row house in the city where I could take you on walks (oh, it wouldn't be you but it would be another big old dog). And where I could collapse at home and lie on the floor with my big dogs and laugh or cry,

Trevor's dad is very very sad - he writes to Bobbie on facebook and I read his words and they are words of desperation and agony. But we lived a superficial life, we don't talk about her or her death at all. That's all I can do at this point. That's all that seems safe.

Babyface, could you send me a sign giving me a clue to the next step on the path, please? I promise to watch for it carefullyand take it very seriously - because after all, you and Gretta are the animals of my soul.

Oh Rufus, I don't feel bad, just in a state of waiting and wondering what to do, especially since my government money doesn't start for a few months. But as long as I have you sending love rays and strength rays to me, I know I w ill do approximately the right thing.

I love you, Rufie, my big black dog.

I miss your nose under my elbow when I wrote on the computer.

I miss our walks.

I miss having to life you into the car.

I miss your soft, shiny fur.

I miss your soft, velvetly ears. I miss your giant head.

And most of all I miss your heart - with it's love as big as the universe.

We'll be together someday Rufus, I promise.

Your mom.