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[Pegoyd]

Hi, I have been on here before, when I lost my beloved Doggie Lloyd, he died 30th April 2012 and my god I miss him still so very much, we had his sister Peggy as well, they were both from the same litter, we had them 21st September 2001, so Lloyd was almost 10 when he passed away ...Peggy was heartbroken that she had lost her brother, as we all were....so 2 months later we rescued another doggie and named him Lenny, Peggy was thrilled to have another doggie in the house

Anyway 6 weeks ago we rescued another puppy, as we knew Peggy wouldn't be with us for many more years as she was almost 13 and we didnt want to leave Lenny alone when her time had come, so along come another doggie, Poppy all 3 of them got along so well, I felt blessed, I still do even now...

On Monday 28th April 2014 Peggy was fine, her normal happy OAP self, the normal happy staffy....Tuesday she was a little ill, we thought maybe she had eaten something and given her a tummy upset, but Wednesday she was in a terrible way, she looked so awful, we took her to the vets who gave us the shock of our lives and told us our precious girl was dying :,(....we just couldn't believe it, the vet said she had a lot of fluid on her lungs and due to her age and the way she was we should do the kindest thing for her, so we did, oh my god how im hurting all over again, I cant believe my princess is gone....

Whats even scarier is the fact she was ok 3 days ago and now shes gone, and she passed over to the bridge on the EXACT same date as her Brother 30th April, but 2 years apart.....

Do you think Lloyd wanted Peggy???? Or is this just a coincidence??? The only happiness in my heart at the moment is Peggy and Lloyd are back together again...

I have had Lloyd ashes put in with Peggys now and they are due home soon, I cant wait to have them here, I miss them so much, I cant believe my girl has gone, I haven't got over losing my Lloyd yet and now I have lost Peggy.....I know 13 is a good age, I had her and Lloyd since they were 9 weeks old and now I feel so empty, the house feels empty even though I still have Lenny and Poppy.......

Im hurting so much, I cant believe my two babies (brother and sister) passed away on the same date

Thank you for reading this

Jodie ******xx

[moon_beam]

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This grief journey is filled with many different emotions, and guilt / remorse is one of the harder emotions to reconcile because it comes from the looking back and trying to reconcile all the "whys" "what ifs" and "if onlys" that haunt the very core of our hearts and minds. I hope in time as your deep grief eases you be able to find comfort and peace in your heart when I say that you ALWAYS did the very best for your beloved Peggy and Lloyd, and the decisions you made for them were the BEST for THEM according to their needs.

Jodie, this grief adjustment journey is both emotional AND physical, and both are very painful in their own special ways. You may find it helpful to hold something that belongs to your beloved Peggy - - one of her favorite toys, her collar, a blanket - - SOMETHING that belongs only to her when the pain is more than you can bear not being able to hold her and look at her. For many months I slept with one of my beloved companion's collars, and held tightly to one of their toys when the searing pain of physical separation was more than I could bear. Every time our companoins rub against us, lick / kiss us they are literally chemically imprinting themselves onto us so that they can identify us from all the other millions of people on this planet. When they precede us to the angels we literally experience a withdrawal from this chemical imprint - - which is one of the many reasons why this grief adjustment journey is so painful physically as well as emotionally.

Also, please let me try to reassure you that your beloved Lloyd and Peggy are reunited in eternal joy and are patiently waiting for you to join them at your appropriate time. Until then, you are their living legacy and their sole, and soul, heir to their eternal love. Their sweet Living Spirits are forever with you as you continue with your earthly journey, - - they are always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Lenny and Poppy kindly, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Lloyd's and Peggy's sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam