Goodbye My Little Gus Options

[KellyMc]

On Sunday 23 Mar 14, I had to make the gut wrenching and guilt-ridden decision to hold my tiny Chihuahua in my arms while he took his last breath. I can't function, and I see that I am not alone. I feel I go through all five stages of grief multiple times during the day, over and over. I still get up twice a night to check on him, I even walk down to the front door to let his spirit out because I feel him the most when I am still caring for him. I have lost pets before, but it never felt like this, and it is tearing out my soul. I just want the days to pass so that I can start to feel like living again.

I miss him so much.

[Gretta's Mom]

Good morning Gus's mom

Your title just broke my heart. It's been almost three years since my Gretta, the kindest chocolate lab who ever lived, went to the Perffect Word, and just a little over a year since my Rufus, a half black lab/half Newfie followed. A day does not go by that I do not shed at least one tear and sometime many more for them. I am so glad that you know that Little Gus is still there with you. His spirit is where his physical body once was. So your letting his spirit out at night had real meaning. It's NOT just a kooky gesture. Gus loves you just as much as ever and he is watching over you just as he as always done. The hole in your heart will eventually paper itself over with the thinnest of paper, but I think these holes will remain with us until we meet our fur-babies in that Perfect World, never to be separated again.

Have a gentle day.

Gretta and Rufus's mom

[KellyMc]

Good morning Gus's mom

Your title just broke my heart. It's been almost three years since my Gretta, the kindest chocolate lab who ever lived, went to the Perffect Word, and just a little over a year since my Rufus, a half black lab/half Newfie followed. A day does not go by that I do not shed at least one tear and sometime many more for them. I am so glad that you know that Little Gus is still there with you. His spirit is where his physical body once was. So your letting his spirit out at night had real meaning. It's NOT just a kooky gesture. Gus loves you just as much as ever and he is watching over you just as he as always done. The hole in your heart will eventually paper itself over with the thinnest of paper, but I think these holes will remain with us until we meet our fur-babies in that Perfect World, never to be separated again.

Have a gentle day.

Gretta and Rufus's mom

Thank you Gretta's Mom! I don't think I have ever cried so hard, holding his tiny little body while he took his last breath. My tears actually soaked his head, I will always remember that. The only part that felt ok was knowing that he was finally with his big sister who had passed from the same health problem 2 years ago (congestive heart failure). And I pictured them running after each other again like they did when they were younger. I can honestly say that I am not afraid of the day when my spirit is released to meet with them again, and I honor their memories every single day. I keep waking up to check on him every night...then I realize that I probably woke up because he is now checking in on me.

thanks for your kind words and heart felt thoughts!