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[Snapdragon]

Just this Tuesday, March 11, we lost our 16-yr old cat to lung cancer. She was getting old and I knew the day was coming that I'd lose her. We had her from a baby and she was just that--my "baby." We didn't know she had lung cancer until we took her to the vet because of a cough she'd developed, but turned out to be lung cancer and the vet said she had maybe a week to live. We decided to not let her suffer and just put her to sleep then and there. I am heartbroken beyond words. At this point in time I just really wish I could die too. And I'm not a "weak" person by any means, but this really feels like more than I can handle. I honestly can't imagine how I'll ever get over her. I think of the bezillion people who have lost loved ones (people and pets) who seem to get "over" it, get on with their lives, but honestly, right now, it seems an impossibility. All I can think is that I just wish I was dead. (and no, I'm not going to kill myself--but I wish I could) I feel like I'm just walking around in a fog right now, I couldn't care less about anything. And what does make it all the worse (if that's possible) is I just feel like no one understands.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Snapdragon, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Right now during the deep grief nothing else matters - - and this is very normal. During the deep grief we measure time by the minutes, hours, days, weeks, - - and yes months - - that our beloved companion is no longer physically with us. But I promise you it will not always be this way. Slowly, at first quite imperceptibly, you will find yourself thinking of something else, someone else, and you will realize that the deep sorrow in your heart is not so consuming. Some people think that when this happens they are forgetting their beloved companion, but I assure you, Snapdragon, this will NEVER happen - - no matter how much time continues in your earthly journey you will ALWAYS remember your beloved Molly Rose. NOTHING in heaven or on earth can ever diminish your treasured memories or the eternal love bond you and your beloved Molly Rose share.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Snapdragon, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Molly Rose's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam