When Does The Crying Stop Options

[Caseysmom10]

My Dog, Tango died on Tuesday, February 4. I done little but cry since. I can't go out, had to cancel a doctors appointment, can't do the grocery store, etc. this is the third time we have gone through this in the last 15 or 20 years and it does NOT get easier. I wish I could have given him some of my time.

[Caseysmom10]

It has been 11 days since Tango died. I alternate between being grateful that he wasn't sick for a long time before he died and wondering if there was more we could have done, since he had been generally healthy. Did we miss something? And then i feel fear that maybe we did and guilt IF we did. And, in these 11 days, I have not yet had one day without crying. A moving poem about dogs which would usually make me tear up momentarily now causes sobbing, and I think it will for a long time.

I keep looking at that last photograph I took of Tango when we brought him home from the veterinary hospital a few days before he died. He was so happy. And, Bailey was so happy to see him.

My husband doesn't talk about it. I think he can't. And, I can't NOT. I know everybody grieves in their own way. His way and mine are just different.

I have lost loved human family members and I find this just as painful.....in some ways more so because 2 weeks before he died everything was fine. I thought we would have him for a few more years.

There BETTER be a heaven with my dogs waiting for me. Anything less would be no heaven at all.