My Poor Spazzie Options

[Matts]

I am mourning the loss of one of our 2 cats whose name was spazzie; he passed over the past weekend. He was such a wonderful companion through and through. However, now i have a void/hole in my heart. And it has made a complete mess out of me. I know it has affected my brother too; but he is not showing that it has affected him; but somehow deep down inside i have a feeling it has. I however do show emotions and have tears since i found out when i got to my parents place on sunday. It was just like when i lost my moms father which will be 5 years next month; exactly the same way is how i felt when he passed; it left a hole/void in my heart and i feel the same way about losing this one cat of ours. I am upset beyond what any words can express or say.

[Matts]

yes; indeed; it is very difficult for me to grab hold of. It definitely will take awhile to heal; but alas; I dont think i will ever be able to let go of this tragic even permanently. It is something that as i said before; there arent enough words to describe or words to say about it. I went over to my parents place earlier today to visit with and play with our other cat; and i still saw remnants of his cat hair in the perch where he use to lay at quite often; and it made me just lose it completely again. I am a complete mess right now and it really hurts more than anyone can imagine.