George Options

[my George]

Here I am 7 months after my dog son George passed tragically. I still cannot bring myself to write about his final days.....too painful....overwhelming guilt. I have been reading others' stories almost everyday to numb this pain. I am still in the same place as the day he went. Time does not heal. Reading posts here gives me some measure of comfort I can't get anywhere else.

Moon_Beam, Gretta's & Rufus's mum, Raccoonkisses, Thank you all. I wouldn't be here today without you.

Deepest gratitude,

George's mum

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[raccoonkisses]

Hello Christine,

I was thinking of both you and me when I was out at the bookstore today. A magnet read, "If you're going through hell, keep going." It has been seven months for me, as well, since I've lost my beloved Diva dog. Time has yet to heal me. Sure, at times, I have happiness and even allow myself to laugh. For me, it is when I'm alone in the house - going from five animals to one in five months has left me emotionally drained. That's when I break down and sob. Yesterday, I was sweeping under the bed. I went to pick up a dead fly, or so I thought. Instead it was a small piece of Diva's hair just lying there next to the bureau. I had never noticed it before. I'm not the greatest house cleaner, but not as bad as having a piece of hair go unnoticed for months...It was just a precious reminder of my little girl who left me all to suddenly. She wasn't even six. The guilt I feel now is not about how she died, but it is not grieving as deeply for my two cats who left me two weeks apart (Abe and Oscar). It's almost as if I can only grieve on at a time. This journey has been so overwhelming.

Anyway, I know your deep pain. Keep busy, pray, meditate...easier said than done, I know. I continue to search, too, for answers. Perhaps my questions are unanswerable. Why?! And where is she?! I know there are those who say they can feel their animals at all times, even from the other side. I wish I were that lucky. Though, I did get to feel Diva's presence shortly after she passed. I know she's ok. I'm the one who is lost. I feel that you are, too. No worries. We will find our way. Like the magnet said, "keep going".

Your friend,
Raccoonkisses

P.S. My husband has a couple of pics I will send your way. He still has to get them off his computer from work. I haven't forgotten.