George Options

[my George]

Here I am 7 months after my dog son George passed tragically. I still cannot bring myself to write about his final days.....too painful....overwhelming guilt. I have been reading others' stories almost everyday to numb this pain. I am still in the same place as the day he went. Time does not heal. Reading posts here gives me some measure of comfort I can't get anywhere else.

Moon_Beam, Gretta's & Rufus's mum, Raccoonkisses, Thank you all. I wouldn't be here today without you.

Deepest gratitude,

George's mum

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[my George]

Thank you....Thank you....Thank you, Moon_Beam and Jan.

I have been reading almost every post on LS site to take my mind off for several months. None of my family or close friends understands my depth of grief and sorrow. I never expected George's passing would cause such carastrophic effect on me and my life. The worst pain in my life(I am in my 40's). I am off work, completely withdrown from social life by choice. I just need to be away from the world outside. I can't even stand watching TV or listening to music. I just read and sleep all day and night. Time passes me by. It feels like 7 hours gone instead of 7 months. Deep down, I know I need to return to the real world soon until I go to him. I wish time to fast forward so that my time is up now. Will he be waiting for me? This bad neglectful mother. I failed him. Unforgivable. My George deserves a better mum.

Moon_Beam, I truly believe you have been put into this world to save us, grieving parents of all furry kids. Your words of wisdom and deep love and understading are comforting and I cling to those.

Jan, I thank you for taking the time for me. George was 10 when he died in hospital. I can't write about his death yet....it's just too painful...I re-live his last days every single my waking moment...it's hell. He was the single reason my life was perfect and happy for 10 years, the longest bond and love I had in my life. I don't want to be happy any more. I let him down.

Akita is a very beautiful breed with renowned loyalty to their family.

I send you and Kobi Big Hugs and lots of kisses.