How Do You Handle It, My cat died yesterday, I can't cope Options

[Ragdollcatbaby]

I had to have my cat put to sleep yesterday. He was 12. I had two choices, I could have medicated him for 24 hours and if there was improvement have MRI scans etc. or let him go. He had totally lost the use of his back legs. I made the decision to let him go as I was so scared he would die alone in a vet cage. And something in my heart just knew it was time, I can say what it was I just knew somehow. I am now feel terrible, like I did the wrong thing. I just can't stop crying

[moon_beam]

Hi, ragdollcatbaby, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved companion. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our companions at great sacrifice to ourselves so that they can be restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels.

Ragdoll, as janika has so comfortingly shared with you, this grief journey is one of the hardest experiences you will know on this side of eternity. It is a journey that is filled with many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time. It is a journey that cannot be reconciled in a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, or even 6 months - - for you are now on a journey that is filled with all the "first withouts" and the memories that right now can be all too painful that include "this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year" to endure. But it is a journey you do not have to travel alone, for each of us here do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Ragdoll, it is very obvious from what you share with us that you did everything in your power to give your beloved companion a happy and healthy earthly journey. As difficult as your deep sorrow is right now, I hope in time you will be able to find peace in your heart that you really did make the best decision for your companion to ease his journey home to the angels - - rather than to subject him to additional tests - - and perhaps very invasive treatments that would only have inflicted additional pain and suffering. Ragdoll, we are only mere mortals - - we do not have the privilege of foreknowledge that provides us the benefit of the knowing the consequences of our decisions. We can only make decisions based on the information and circumstances of the events as they are happening at the time. I hope you will be able to find comfort in your heart that your beloved companion KNOWS you did everything in your power to help him during his medical crisis, and that you did the right thing for him.

One of the many things you need to remember is that the love bond you and your beloved companion share is eternal - - it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved companion's sweet Living Spirit continues to share your earthly journey as he always has and always will for he is always and forever in your heart and memories - - he is always and forever a heartbeat close to you.

I know all too well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there really are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the seering pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey.

Ragdollcatbaby, thank you so much for sharing your beloved companion with us. Perhaps sometime you will feel up to sharing a picture of him with us - - but only when / if you want to. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam