Infinite Sadness Options

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I have had to put animals to sleep in the past, however, today was the worst day of my life, literally. I came home from work to find my 7 year old rottie/lab mix dead. He did not exhibit any signs of sickness or discomfort, which makes the guilt all the more diffucult to take. I find myself thinking over and over again about what I could've done to have made my sweet boy's life better. I loved Klaus more that anything in the world and after something like this happens, it kind of zaps you of any shred of faith that might have once occupied a place in your heart. My dear sweet boy died alone and I can only hope that he is not mad at me or up in heaven asking the question "why?" It was not his time and I feel as if both he and I were cheated. I am dying inside.

I hurt, I cry, I mourn the loss of my bestfriend. I hope that he is not mad at me, fore I am mad enough at myself for not showing 100% of the time how much I loved and cherished him.


I'm sorry Klausie....please forgive me.