Sharing My Dream From This Morning Options

[hegelsmom]

I want to share my dream from this morning. I have so been hoping to be "visited"
by Hegel in a dream. Over the years, my 19 year old cat who died 7 years ago,
has occassionally visited.
This morning, I was dreaming about my grandmothers house. She has been dead
about 25 years. I often dream about her house for some reason. The family
doesn't even own it anymore. But I often dream of it.
This morning, I was dreaming of walking through it. I was in the living room, and there was Hegel! He was sleeping so peacefully in a rocking chair! I scooped him
up and said "oh it's you, it's really you!" It was so real, and he was so soft! I said
"I'm taking you home!" and I started to run. Then, there was a blinding white light,
and I woke up.
I was so upset, I nearly hyperventilated lying there in bed. In some ways the dream
brought me peace, as that house holds only pleasant memories for me, but my
"desperate psychosis" of wanting him back was disappointed.

I went to see my vet this afternoon, the one who sent me to the Animal ER.
I told her my dream, and she cried. She said she has had dreams about her past
pets, and is particularly haunted by her dog that had a brain tumor. She put him
to sleep herself! on her birthday! She got really emotional talking about it.
I was telling her what bad shape that I had been in. She tried to alleve my guilt
about my feelings of negligence for not noticing sooner how sick my cat was.
It helped as I sat there with her, but of course, I'm breaking down again now.

[jillybromley]

I think sometimes we dream about our furbabies and they are just dreams, but I am convinced that at other times there is something else going on and that there can be dreams that are more than just dreams.

I had a border collie who died of leukemia 18 years ago. She was 7 and the love of my life and I thought I would never get over loosing her.

1 month after she died I had one of those special dreams. When I say special I mean it was a kind of lucid dream. It was all totally real and everything about it was surrounded by a brilliant white light. The intensity of feeling that came during the dream made me think that I was awake within the dream.

I was floating in a kind of out of body experience in this lucid dream and then suddenly I saw her running towards me. Everything about it was so real as I hugged her ... I could smell her, feel my fingers on her fur, feel her hot breath on my face. It was such a real experience that as I woke from the dream I sat bolt upright in bed and knew that it had really happened. I put my hands up to my face and I could smell her on my hands.

I have had many animals before and since and have dreampt about them all many times but I have never had a dream like that again. The experience makes me truely believe that our babies are still alive and waiting for us and that very occasionally, if there has been a very special bond, then perhaps they can sometimes reach us in our dreams.

I haven't posted for a few weeks as I am in such a dark pit of depression and loneliness at the moment that words don't come easily. It is now a month since Ellie died and I'm not handling it very well at all. I shouldn't be lonely, I've got a lovely family and good friends, but I can't help being lonely for her, and her dear little furry body to kiss and cuddle.

Love to you all
jilly