Lightning Strikes Twice!, Do I have the strength? Options

[gravessa]

Ten grief stricken days 27.02.13 since Simba went to sleep whilst going through the turmoil of emotions that comes with dealing with I had to go to the local hospital last night to watch vigil with my husband as my elderly mother in law lay dying & died from a blood clot in her lungs. As you can imagine it was a dreadful journey home & weighted ever since being in the reality that Simba is not around for us to draw comfort from each other because me & my husband are not just mourning for Simba but my mum in law.

Seems like some perverse joke played from above, when a similar happened almost exactly 3 years ago to the day to my father in law, at least Simba was there so we could focus our love & attention on him & he would be there with his feline smile & cuddles to soothe each other all the more. I am not in any way comparing a human death to a to an animal death, indeed it has to be said I was more close in relationship to Simba because he was my close constant companion, his not being here has made everything seem much more so unbearable, because no matter what happened I had at least him to focus on & his needs, making him happy gave me joy, but the past 2 weeks or so has made him passing away worse & compounded the grief to an unbearable point. I was in tears because i feel Simba would have known how to distract us & deal with our grief, sat here now feeling that I have been left behind, not angry at Simba that would be unfair, but bereft in despair because he would know how deal with us simply by his presence, but thats is not possible, even started feeling ill with a very bad cold, hardly sleeping & eating. When will these dark days end?

[LoveMyMickey]

Dear gravessa,

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Simba and your Mother-in-law especially so close together.....I had a similar experience a few years ago. We were expecting our dog to die because she wasn't well, but a very close relative died first that Feb. and our dog the next month.....Mickey also died within a year of a very close relative, but he was here another year to help comfort us.

Take care, gravessa, and take one day at a time.

Hugs,

LoveMyMickey

[gravessa]

Dear gravessa,

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Simba and your Mother-in-law especially so close together.....I had a similar experience a few years ago. We were expecting our dog to die because she wasn't well, but a very close relative died first that Feb. and our dog the next month.....Mickey also died within a year of a very close relative, but he was here another year to help comfort us.

Take care, gravessa, and take one day at a time.

Hugs,

LoveMyMickey

Thank you for your very kind words of support, it means a great deal to me, like me you have been knocked sideways twice. It good to have a website like this to find comfort & share not only our grief but also to remember the good memories & unconditional love we shared with our soul mates which we all have in common here. Like us they are individuals who not only had love for us & are loved by us still, they had feelings as much as we do & we wove our lives in theirs & they did in ours & that cannot ever be undone. I hold on the god given hope that we, whoever we are, will never be separated again when the time comes & that this separation is a test of that love & the grief is the ultimate proof of the love we shared together.

Gratitude & hugs
gravessa